Lingering Observations from the Weekend
I've really been riding high since Saturday night. It's amazing what a single electric sex session can do for your overall attitude. It's especially important for married folk, I s'pect. If you're single and have open options, a dud here or there doesn't kill you, because there's always the thought of some other option presenting itself. When you're married, a great night of sex (particularly after a span of lackluster or nonexistent sex), reminds one that the chemistry is real, and that the possibility for mind-blowing sex is always there. For the gift of finding a woman with whom I have virtually limitless chemistry I am truly grateful.
I've also been reflecting on the notion that PE training is really about improving my ability to catalyze that chemistry when it counts. It's about making sure I'm ready to bring my best when the opportunity presents itself. While my EQ issues linger, they aren't as much of a problem as they were 2-3 weeks ago. This weekend was proof of that. I'm now talking about regaining that last 5-10%, as opposed to 20-25%. No reason to think that won't continue to improve.
The high I got from the sex was also really notable. I mean, I always enjoy sex with my wife, but after she had this piv/g-spot orgasm Saturday, with me pumping like a porn star and telling her to cum on my cock, I was FLYING! After she finished I was so juiced, I didn't even want to push for my own orgasm. I could have kept going, and she would have been happy to help; but I don't think it would have felt any better honestly. It felt good to soak in those endorphins. I might have fallen asleep faster had I gotten off, but who knows what that's worth ....
I really do think she noticed the size difference. She didn't say that explicitly, and it could honestly just be due to the fact that was our first "late-night" sex in a while where I got super hard. "Late-night" usually involves drinking beer, and it means she is more likely to be vocal. All that said, she typically isn't vocal without being prompted. For example, if I prompt with something like "Do you like it when I fuck you?" or something she will respond in kind. But this time, as she was getting closer to O, and I was pumping faster and faster, she volunteered, "Keep fucking me!" numerous times. There was also an unprovoked "Oh, wow," when I went all the way in with my Pivot on. I'm at least telling myself she's starting to notice a difference.
There have also been reminders of other work that needs to be done (on my part and hers) to raise the temperature of the chemistry between us. These reminders are related to what I see as the true power of monogamy. A monogamous relationship is about working together to help both partners become the best version of themselves they can. This reminds me there are other ways I can empower her to embody her better self. And as we both work toward this in domains outside sexuality, that only serves to make our sexuality better when the time to express that presents itself.
One last observation is that as I have gained size through PE, my belief in my own dirty talk is now ... believable. I used to ask things like "Do you like how my big, hard cock feels in your pussy?" but I was really only saying the words to "be hot" or turn us both on more, without really believing the "big" part. Saturday, similar things were said on numerous occasions, and I actually believe it now. I feel it now. And that's no small thing
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