very soft erection/flaccid like water balloon.
very soft erection/flaccid like water balloon.
so, i've gotten 1 or 2 responses to this problem since i 've been here, and i'm very sorry if i'm violating some forum rule (some of you seem very strict on that, guessing it's cause i'm selfishly taking up space with MY problem, when it's nothing special).
anyway, i'm 19 years old, and for the past 2 and a half months, maybe three, i've had a problem with chronic softness. hence, posting in this forum.
here's how it went- this has happened to me once, and kinda freaked me out, but i had an erection SO soft, it was completely floppy. (girlfriend called it "Grandpa penis"). first time it happened, it went away in about 4 days. back to normal. great. hard.
but around two-three months ago, i was a bit insane with low self-esteem, and jelqed twice a day, every day, for a week and a half. no rest days, i'm pretty sure i went past a limit...
at first, there were no visual symptoms, just a complete absence of arousal for another week, so i didn't notice it.
but after that, semen built up, as it does, and thankfully my body was able to make an erection again. or rather, another "psuedo-erection". soft and floppy, made of rubber. and i noticed something; the right and middle parts of my shaft had blue/purple spots. i stretched the skin a bit, and saw that there were very small broken veins within the spots. obviously something popped, but from what i've read, little veins like that are superficial for the most part. and on the left side, a nearly sky-blue vein started bulging out, resembling thrombosis, or varicose. (not a doctor)
softness remained, unchanging. but 2 weeks into the suspected damage, i watched my fav. porn, and somehow got a rock-hard erection. couldn't be bent easily.
then about a month later, the spots dissipated, but the enlarged vein remained...and so did the softness.
the softness is soul-draining.
so THEN i had an older buddy of mine buy me some novodex xt, having read somewhere about testosterone being involved in function of the penis, thinking it would repair it. took some of that for a few days, but stopped. figured why bother. plus, i later read about its negative sexual impacts, and i didn't want do dig my grave even deeper.
the main point of this is basically to get responses from people who have even the foggiest idea of what i should do. still with my girl, and want to keep it that way.
i will add that i am deep into Qigong (like tai chi, but better), and yoga meditation. i have ruled out psychological causes by now, i'm certain. this has allowed me to mature very quickly.
i still smoke cigarettes, but nothing else. though smoking kinda defeats the purpose, i am still a very healthy eater, and in great physical health (at least in terms of muscle, got a six-pack). i just, like i said, need some more positive reinforcement/direction than just one person. though they have been very helpful, (thanks NP)
still, i have yet to go more than 3 days without masturbating...this is my third day. goin strong. still no improvement.
what i REALLY want, is for someone to say they've had this exact problem, for this long, and recovered.
it is my personal belief that the body can recover from anything. so let's hear a story!
i'm hopeful and positive, and nowhere near suicidal about this.
