yay its not over.........

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I was happy man. I really was. I adored this girl more than anything. She was my first everything, except sex. Well I'm still a virgin. Basically what happened was we didn't get to see each other a lot. It was almost like a long distance relationship. I would see her once a week at times..and then I might not see her for a month. It's just the cultural back ground we came from; her dad was hesitant of letting us hang out in public. So she eventually got bored and broke it off in november after about 3 years. I was completely blindsided. That's the story in short. It sucked man. I was really miserable after that for months. Only recently have I learned to let it not affect my daily life. It was just that the ending was so inconclusive.

Really hope I don't have to deal with a heartbreak like that ever again. It sucks the life out of you.

Hey friend¡ you dont have all lost, maybe in the future things could change. When she be older and his father dont bother you can be with she.
Good luck¡
 

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If i were you man I would put the pride aside, have a straight up talk with her. No mind games, no nothing. Tell her how you feel straight up, tell her you want straight forward answers to any questions you ask and that you'll give her straight forward answers to any questions she has. Have a talk with her so that afterwards neither of you are left with any questions, or wondering about anything
 

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lmao i am going to tell her i want to be friends. I dont have any actual friends that are girls, unless were friends because of sex, but i mean friends i dont have sex with. how do you think it will go?
 

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Hey friend¡ you dont have all lost, maybe in the future things could change. When she be older and his father dont bother you can be with she.
Good luck¡

Thank you mari. really appreciate it :)
 

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funny thing is i lost my virginity to this girl to. But i was determined to prove that the feelings were just because she took my virginity and not real. So cue the other girls, not only did this girl give me the ability to basically have sex on demand but she took away the urge to have sex with anyone but her. Which is really surprising. And befopre anyone says anything, she told me she had met another guy before i started sleeping around. We started out as FWB and she thought making up a dude would make me jealous and commit. Well i got jealous lol.

its really complicated. but only because we were both fighting for control. oh and pride cant forget pride.

Man I always wondered what would have happened if we had lost our virginities to each other.. guess we'll never know. And the thing you mention about not having the urge to have sex with another chick.. man I am in the same boat. I feel like i'm not really attracted to girls anymore at times. Like in my head i'll know that a girl is insanely hot, but I won't have any urge to get with her.

I understand man.. things like these always are complicated. "pride can't forget pride", you say some pretty deep things. I'm impressed lol.

And as far as being just friends with the girl.. thats how I am with my EX. It's kinda painful dude. I don't talk to her unless she hits up, which is atleast once a week. But of she ever mentions other guys..even casually. It definitely burns me up inside. And i'm like you too. I don't really have girls that i'm just friends with. Whatever you do, tread carefully and take care of your sanity.
 

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yeah man after reading that, i gotta tell you i dont think thatll ever work out, and thats coming from ME (you know my situation haha) i mean she seems to just fuck with you, she brings up things from the past like that? she shouldnt do that, especially if she cared for you..
 

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mmkay I am off. I am still gonna go with the friends approach. lol i am surpsiingly nervous, which is rare.
 

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it didnt go as planned. I told her i wanted to be friends and she got a weird look on her face and then started to cry. But it was weird she kept smiling and tears just started to fall down her cheeks. I panicked, i really didnt expect that and i hugged her and then i kissed her forehead followed by her cheek and then she kissed me and then we went and had sex in the car. but it was amazing.... i have had sex where it was pure lust before but this was different, it was the best sex i have ever had. I finished in 20 mins. when she kissed me though i sorta lost control, if she hadnt of dragged me out of the store we might of had sex right there lol.
so now i dont know what to do. i cant stop thinking about her and obviously now its going to be much more difficult to remain friends. Also im not to happy about finishing so fast, that means there is still some psychological block preventing me from finishing in a regular time period normally.

also what do you think she is thinking? i thought she was going to be happy when i wanted to stay friends.
 

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Wow man. I honestly am a bit jealous. I wish my ex would try to get me back like that haha. It's always rough when they start crying though. Sounds like you really care about this girl man. I think both of you guys fucked up before. Her lying to you about a made up guy and you trying to get back at her by sleeping around. But you could be looking at a fresh start here buddy. Just take it slow and go with the flow.

Honestly there is no way of knowing what she is thinking. Maybe she's happy that should could reconnect with you again? who knows.
 

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I really am at a loss as to what to do about this. I want her, I know that. Now i really just want to give in to what I want.
 

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isn't the pursuit of happiness the main focus of life? If you think it'll make you happy then go for it man. I know I would
 

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well i just got off work. i was in the bar tonight so i was interacting with a lot of women. It made it so much worse, all i could think of was her nonstop. Every woman i saw just made me want her more lol. So yes i am going to go for it.
 

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Man i'm happy for ya. Let me know how things go
 

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Well I am at a complete and total loss. I tried calling her this afternoon, she never answered, I sent her a text saying hi. No response. Its been hours, she is not the type to not respond. To say the least I am somewhat nervous lol. My only theory is now she is worried about the possible hurt to and has lost some confidence in me. I was in such a good mood all day to lol. My plan is to drink, hide my phone and go to the bar. I think I have to wait for her to contact me now. Or maybe she wants me to keep trying. lol god damnit.
 

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Man I understand how you're feeling. I know I would kinda panic. Maybe something happened to her phone? who knows.. maybe she's nervous too and doesn;t know what to do. One thing I do know is that as guys, we always assume the worst. So it'll be hard, but just try not to overthink this.
And maybe you shouldn't drink when you're upset. You could be a happy drunk..I know I am. But drinking while upset is how people become alcoholics. I remember the first time I started drinking heavily was when I was depressed after my breakup, and now I always crave alcohol when I'm in a shitty mood. Take it easy man
 
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still havnt heard from her. I havnt tried to get ahold of her though. Today I will.
 

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That sounds rough man. Hope your doing alright. I would be stressing over this a lot if I were you. I don't know if you are doing the same..but I know thats not going to help one bit. it probably distracts from regular daily activities. You really need to get a hold of her one way or another and find out what she really want. let me know how things go. You can pm me too if you don't want to keep replying on this thread. up to you.
 

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I make her feel helpless. She says she feels like she has no control when she is with me. I make her feel stupid because she was the smartest person she knew until she met me. She makes plans about what to do about or with me and then when she sees me everything goes out the window. So she doesnt know what she is going to do, but she would like some time alone. I cant explain how angry this makes me. Surprisingly not at her, the ability to admit that is huge. So i am gonna go get drunker then ive been in awhile. I also give up. I mean what the fuck..... seriously... wtf
 

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Wow man.. this reminds me of the stuff my ex said about a month ago: "I do love you a lot" ," I know I'll never find anyone who'll ever love me more than you did" ..then why the fuck aren't you with me. That makes no sense what so ever. If you feel the way you do, then why the fuck are you not with me. It made me angry too.. but i just kept all of those thoughts to myself. Maybe I should've expressed how I felt. But I just kept quite and let her do what she wanted to in fear of pushing her away even more. I'll never know if I did the right thing or not. No one will ever know. theres no way of really predicting what is the right move and what is not in such situations. I honestly don't know how you should react to her now dude.
Try not to drink because of this man. It won't help you in any way. If you still want to get drunk, drink with your friends and not alone. Keep your friends close man. That's the only thing that will help you keep your head straight during times like this.
 

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Lol, I havnt slept yet. Last month my best friend told me virtually the same thing, "I cant trust you because even though you have never done anything wrong in the past 14 years we have been friends I never know what your going to do and you are capable of screwing me over at any point without me ever even knowing it", this was right before we were about to make a life changing business decision. Either way, I am drinking alone for the most part :)
Im not mad or sad right now, more of a funny cynical destroy everything type mood. Very productive lol.