Welp, I'm fucked then.from what ive learned a Heavy porn addiction with escalated genres is between 1-2 years of recovery time, if you have used it since youth.
Welp, I'm fucked then.
relapsed(fapping) day 1 no fap, day 341 no porn. I'm glad I'm here to let that out. Need to take responsibility for my actions. At it again now. First short term goal is to make it to new years without fapping/ any kind of edging. It just kills my confidence. Some might say that fapping once in a while (without porn) is not that bad. But comming out of serious PIED and also just following goals in general, I need to get this done. I don't need to fap, and I cant anymore. It almost feels like if I cant do this simple task, then I cant achieve other achievements in life ie. making an online business which I've been working on. It just doesnt feel the same, my mind gets too clouded when I give in to vices. Need to take this more seiously just like I took quitting porn when I quit COLD TURKEY. If can do that, then I can quit fapping cold turkey as well starting TODAY. god dAMN what a loser ive been. Lets get it. Forward only from now on.
I dropped in today because I almost dropped out last night. The longing was so strong it felt other worldly. Partially I think because I am trying so hard to change my diet. I'm diabetic and now my Pancreas gave up completely. I don't eat terribly bad, but I love ice cream. Trying to nail myself to the proper diet seems to have instigated a dopamine desire. I made it to the morning still holding true. But the desire...
I reset and learn from this mistake...
I tried to justify using it...No excuses...
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