now I'm back to being in a shitty mood cos of this
https://www.pegym.com/forums/relationship-forum/28704-how-do-i-get-over-girl.html . It's the girl at work, one of my mates brought her up last night in a chat on fb to me and ughhhhh it's just not leaving. It's obviously because I've not wanted anyone so badly in my life and I really can't be bothered to look for someone else and put so much effort in, in case it does not work out. It's more me doubting myself and the fact that I am not what she wants and comparing myself to the type of guy she wants which I try to convince myself is some '6'3, tan, Italian, ripped' guy and not a '5'11, white, English, average' guy but I think that's probably bullshit. Also with my mate going through a similar situation with a girl from his work and the end result being him going out with her it's just hard to know that if she really liked me working with her wouldn't make a difference so I can't use that as an excuse, I never told her how I felt because it's pointless. Didn't give me any time out of work so it shows how much she likes me but her personality, her looks and everything just attracted me from the first time I talked to her.
I don't think anything bad of her for not giving me time because obviously she never wants to make me even think that we have any chance of going out which obviously doesn't feel good. I haven't made it awkward, she still talks to me if we see each other but it's not like I want to see her that much anymore.
I'm sick of this cycle too I seem to get over her, then not over her, then over her, then not over her. It's really annoying. I miss this time last year where I didn't think anything of relationships, girls etc because I wasn't asking anyone out, wasn't thinking about asking anyone out and I wasn't interested in anyone so I didn't have anything to worry or be sad about and all my focus were on other things. Bahhhhhhhhhhhh hate this feeling.