Last time for me on this subject...... A girl, young lady, female, wife and anything with a vagina that likes men...... want to be desired, touched loved, needed, respected etc etc etc! Women want the same thing men do when it comes to a relationship (romantic or sexual involvement) No one wants a "door mat" as a partner. No one wants a spineless wimp as a partner (male and female) A true relationship is based on mutual respect.
I believe in my heart that you are carrying a lot baggage from your past! You must deal with this baggage before you will ever find happiness with anyone, be it male or female! You must be happy with yourself before you will ever be happy with anyone else. You know the saying, "money doesn't buy happiness?" A girl friend wont bring you happiness either.
Admit you have a problem (emotional), take advice from professionals( no not us), stop arguing with people trying to help you and get on medication if you have to. I speak from personal experience dealing with my crazy Aunt. She was dropped by every psychologist, because she never admitted she had a problem, argued with the shrink on everything, took no ones advice and refused to take her meds to make her tolerable for the rest of us. She is 55 years old! I finally cut off all communication with her April 2012! You are in control of you! If your not, get on meds so you can address the true underlying cause of you issues.
God bless and move on.....