Forgive me for any sort of ignorance on this matter.
I didn't want to make a thread on this, as the topic is quite negative in nature.
Why is suicide always considered selfish?
As one who has thought about it plenty and came quite close to attempting I have always kept it in my head that I wouldn't do it because of what others would think or do, but why is someone choosing the when, how, and where of their passing selfish?
I've thought about it too and gave some clear thought on the matter. To me, it's easier to just play everyday by ear and try to make it through the tough times when it seems there's no hope.
I don't know if I feel like it's "Selfish" but more so self-righteous and self-absorbed. You're saying that your world is the worst to live in. So much so that everybody who has tried to make you feel better was worthless to you because you're so caught up in yourself. You fail to see people care about you because you're so focused on your Woe-is-me story that you don't see the big picture... That things are bad, yes, but people still want you around... need you around.
If i'd killed myself so long ago you'd not be getting this answer on this forum right now. Your contribution to the world is greater than you assume it is, and to think "well I'm just going to end it now because nobody will care, and I just can't handle this life anymore" is selfish and self-absorbed... Again, because you have taken that position of "I know better than you whether I have made an impact in your life" That's stupid thinking... Some of the most influential people have no idea they have as much influence over people as the really do.
So to me, it's selfish because you have no clue what your predicament or your struggle means to someone else who may have that same struggle but doesn't tell you about it. They look to you for their strength and you look to someone else for your strength with NOBODY knowing each others weaknesses... when you give up, you start a chain reaction of people giving up and nobody wins.
That's at least how I see it. I made it through because I knew, on the other side of this pain, there's going to be lotsof happiness... why? because life is ONLY as happy as you chose to see it. I know people who've had a much harder life than me, and still struggling but are much happier than I am. I know people who have had it so easy, never had to worry about ANYTHING in their lives and are much sadder and depressed... You can choose to be happy and you can choose to look for the positive things even in the negative or you can be a self-absorbed wallowing recluse stuck in a pity party that nobody knows is eating you alive.
So the base question is... Would you rather be eaten alive in the dark, or smile and strive to live in the daylight. May take meds to stabilize your mood at first, but you can come off them if you start helping yourself see positive in every negative. EVERY negative has a positive and if you can't see that, make one up and keep it moving.
The only poison stuff we have down here we use ammonia and antihistamine (puts you straight to sleep) IMMEDIATELY since that is what is on high alert in the body. If the kids get into it we get a prescribed numbing cream which works great. You could cut their blister off and they wouldn't feel it. We all keep a tube around. I really hope you get better fast how terrible!