Wow, now that's heart geono. To answer Hans, I had lacerations under on top left and right in my penis sheath. I may have fucked it up due to sleeping on my side last night, I felt a "squiggle" on the left side.
The search for professional help had me working with a therapist but the search for a cure shouldn't end there. I have to keep trying, even if I die trying. I still have to advocate.
When I go to the gym, there are regulars with nerve damage. Ms, amputee, penile, I notice these guys have better intentions knowing they show up like clock work at the same time.
It's that structure I crave, I was at the mobile crisis unit last week, life wasn't going how I planned, but they came up with a schedule for me: to start working with a proctor to gym, and volunteering during day. Knowing that I need to daily expose myself and just get out there.
I'm hoping I nip this injury in the bud. Gonna test my EQ as I have almost gotten rid of porn completely
The way I injured it I was jelquing by day, removing hair from pubis at night, which left it vulnerable. Then I watched porn for too long and vigorously, and I felt the lacerations in it while holding the Jimmy in my hand. Scarey. After the left ventricle stayed deflated, I jerked off one more time out of anger. It's never been too old, I had swelling (edema) about 2 times the size, plus my dick was moving back and forth like a pendulum sways. Tons of fukkin pain. Anguish, I'm ready to go back to the decision making board and see if I have what it takes to make it work again whilolisstically non invasive.
I noticed that I've found myself better helped while praying more than usual. Prayer can move mountains. I can't explain everything, but I feel like the prognosis, ongoing diagnosis, is getting better.
May peace be with you.