Over masturbation and ED for 15 years - Quite cold turkey 5 days ago

[JohnQ]

Yo JQ! Just checking in. I wasn't recommending the caffeine pills. I was trying to say that you should get off of them if you haven't...I was trying to be as subtle as I can with this. As a programmer, I was horribly addicted to caffeine. I switched to a natural lifestyle and have seen improvements across the board--emotionally and physically. I still like my hot coffee in the morning but I have been drinking this product called Dandy Tea (Dandy Blend). Tastes like coffee and for me that does it for me.

I was never a big "body builder" type. I work out, but avoided (as tempting as it may be) the other things that some in that circle take. I have been doing CrossFit for about a year now. I follow mainly a Paleo diet with 50% of my diet consisting of vegetables, 1/4 meat and the other 1/4 grains. It works for my body type. Good deal on cutting down the adult beverages. In talking with other guys, they complain about many ofthe same issues you voiced--and many are only in their 30's. I can say that a common factor in all of their conversations was alcohol consumption. BELIEVE ME! Was there done that. I drank beer like it was going out of style. Only till I stopped that I realized how much harder and frequent my erections were. Yes I still go to World of Beers and my local brewery every now and then, but in no way have I resorted back to that lifestyle of a 12pack/day and two 18 packs on the weekend.

Take care man. I am cheering for you. You will lick this thing. I know it!

Hey! Thanks for checking in and it is good to hear from you.

Actually, I am a software developer/architect also and I often work long days and late nights. The mental edge caffeine gives you is incredible at 9:00 PM on a Saturday night when you are miles into lots of code and functionality and a deadline is looming! You know what i mean.

The funny about me is that all my programmer friends tell me I am a bundle of contradictions. Supposedly I don't look like a developer but I am somewhat of a geek and always have been. I don't know but it makes me laugh.

Yeah, I have given up caffeine pills completely. Took 2 per day for several years. I guess I was just always addicted to stimulants whether it was caffeine or ephedrine. I am done with that stuff!

 

[JohnQ]

About 4 times a week on average. I've recently had 6 day runs where I will every night. TwinLabs Yohimbe Fuel will help a bunch! But I only take it when I'm going to have sex. When I masturbate I just have to work it back hard...some nights I can't get him back up so it ends right there. The how long is hard to say for sure. If my arms start getting cramps or the skin on my dick starts to show wear (I feel it) I force myself to cum. If I've taken YF I can masturbate right though to when I cum without loosing my erection when I force myself to cum. Thats why I take it if I'm going to have sex. Sometimes I can cum at 50% erect...but not if I've cum several times that week.

I was week earlier this week. I just started pumping and wanted to see how it felt to masturbate with a very fat dick, plus make sure I didn't break anything. So I did couple nights earlier this week.

Interesting. I can relate as I used to do it every night and most mornings and found that if I fantasized right I could get really hard and cum. I had issues too with wearing the skin and getting a pump in my forearm. It seems funny now that am nearly 30 days without it.

 

[JohnQ]

Day 27
Penis - not that big flaccid and no erection for several days
Mood - not that good at all today. A bit depressed and down.
Morning erection - 20%

I think I am flatlining again and have been for about a week. I starting taking Butea Superba a few days ago and my flaccid length is pretty decent but there is no mental stimulation and no drive. Toughing it out.

 

[JohnQ]

Day 28
Penis - not that big flaccid and no erection for several days
Mood - not that good at all today. A bit depressed and down.
Morning erection - 20%

Same report as yesterday. My reports are really boring now but I am toughing it out. I have noticed slight difficulty urinating now but I am not concerned as my PSA levels have been really good.

My workouts have been going pretty well this week. As of this morning, I am down to 235 lbs so I have dropped another 2-3 lbs this week. Yippee!!!

The biggest hurdle for me is going to be dealing with the moods I am experiencing. I can say that the gym is my outlet and stress reliever and with the depressions I have felt it has probably saved my life a couple of times :angel: I am working to keep things in perspective and I am going to make it through this one way or another.

I have to say that this problem is demoralizing and when you don't feel like a man there is no real reason to live except for those who depend on me. I put myself in this boat and I have to find a way out.

Well, I will post tomorrow. See you then!

 

[JohnQ]

About 4 times a week on average. I've recently had 6 day runs where I will every night. TwinLabs Yohimbe Fuel will help a bunch! But I only take it when I'm going to have sex. When I masturbate I just have to work it back hard...some nights I can't get him back up so it ends right there. The how long is hard to say for sure. If my arms start getting cramps or the skin on my dick starts to show wear (I feel it) I force myself to cum. If I've taken YF I can masturbate right though to when I cum without loosing my erection when I force myself to cum. Thats why I take it if I'm going to have sex. Sometimes I can cum at 50% erect...but not if I've cum several times that week.

I was week earlier this week. I just started pumping and wanted to see how it felt to masturbate with a very fat dick, plus make sure I didn't break anything. So I did couple nights earlier this week.

Do you find Yohimbe Fuel to be a better brand than others? I have taken Yohimbe many times before and it works pretty well. I love the GNC Yohimbe 451 and have also tried PrimaForce Yohimbine Hcl (2.5 mg pharmaceutical grade) but I don't get the same effects as with the GNC brand. I think I have taken the TwinLab Yohimbe Fuel before and I think I remember it working.

 

[JohnQ]

Day 29
Penis - took a 750mg Now Maca this morning and penis is slightly bigger flaccid
Mood - not that good at all today. A bit depressed and down.
Morning erection - 10%

 

[JohnQ]

Day 30
Penis - small and unresponsive - I am definitely in my second flatline
Mood - not that good at all today. A bit depressed and down.
Morning erection - none

I think I have been flatlined for about 5-6 days and just now realized it. I have reached Day 30 and feel worse than when I started. LOL. I still have no sex drive at all but that is nothing new - lived that way for years.

My urine flow is still constricted a bit probably due to prostate swelling. Not sure why that would be but I don't care. I am keeping with my plans.

 

[Mark 1]

Just checking in john. Keep it up. Hope to hear some good news soon!

 

[SeaCock]

Do you find Yohimbe Fuel to be a better brand than others? I have taken Yohimbe many times before and it works pretty well. I love the GNC Yohimbe 451 and have also tried PrimaForce Yohimbine Hcl (2.5 mg pharmaceutical grade) but I don't get the same effects as with the GNC brand. I think I have taken the TwinLab Yohimbe Fuel before and I think I remember it working.

I tried one other and got pretty much nothing from it. The TwinLabs brand must be pretty strong. I have cut about 1/3 of the powder out of the caplets a few times to reduce the strong side affects.

 

[JohnQ]

Day 31
Penis - still in my flatline I think but slightly better today
Mood - better than yesterday. Added 5-HTP to my daily Tyrosine and seems to be helping. The negative thoughts don't have as much bite as before.
Morning erection - none

Nothing remarkable to comment on today. About to go to the gym and work legs. Hope to have a real nut buster!

 

[JohnQ]

Day 32
Penis - still slightly flatlined but a bit fuller today (see below)
Mood - still better
Morning erection - awoke around 1:00 AM with an 80% erection - not too bad.

I introduced Maca to my supplements three days ago and have been taking about 1500 mg per day. I notice that Maca does indeed help my libido and makes my penis a bit fuller and more responsive. My drive is still low and I can't just look at a woman and get an erection but it seems to be helping.

Oh, I also re-introduced Arginine Ethyl Ester (A2E) to my workout supplements last night. That seems to be an effective form of Arginine and I am taking it with AAKG and Pycnogenol on an empty stomach.

Also, my urine flow problem seems to be better since yesterday. Maybe just a temporary adaptive condition? Not sure.

I have read that it is best to take Maca for about 3 weeks then take a week off. That is what I am gonna try.

Does anyone here have any experience with Maca? If so what brand do you recommend?

 

[SeaCock]

I don't have an answer for you, but I would like to know why you're taking MACA?

I'm trying to stop masturbating to ejaculation and dick has been a bit dead now. Last night I thought I'd see what kind of erection I could get while watching TV and reading here. Pretty much sucked...took for ever and EQ was an 8...maybe...might have been closer to a 7.

Been following your posts...keep it going!

 

[JohnQ]

Day 33
Penis - still slightly flatlined
Mood - not as good as yesterday - felt a bit depressed and closed in
Morning erection - about 50%

I got weak today and masturbated on an impulse. Unfortunately it took about 15 seconds to ejaculate and it lasted for about 20 seconds. I did it again the next morning and I feel terrible about it.

Interestingly though, my penis is fuller today despite that.

I am back on my disciplined abstinence.

 

[JohnQ]

Day 34
Penis - not as flatlined today - a bit of life but not 'normal'
Mood - highly depressed this morning at work
Morning erection - awoke around 5:00 AM with a 70% erection - interesting

 

[SeaCock]

I went to the doctor yesterday and I talked to her about my DE. She wants to do some blood work and wants me to see a urologist. She going to do the full battery of tests...testosterone, diabetes, thyroid and stuff like that.

I ask her about abstinence from masturbation. My dick has been DEAD since I stopped. Poor performance (low EQ) the last two times to have sex. She said there are several different trains of thought on this. She said the best advice she has from the studies she has read is to work on an individual basis. Not everyone is the same. What might work for one guy might not for the next 10.

So my thinking is to cut back as much as possible...but keep the blood flowing down there. I had better erections the day after masturbating that after 5 days of nothing.

 

[Wzntme]

Actually, I am a software developer/architect also and I often work long days and late nights.

HaHa...I knew there was something I liked about you! I know what you mean, but can you really call it work if you actually like spending your off time doing it?! I am always knee deep in some code--work or otherwise. Hard to stop when you have just about perfected that newly added feature and need about "30 more minutes" to complete it.

And I get you about what your friends say about you not looking like your stereotypical software developer. The really funny thing is, there is only one person that in my company that will fit the stereotype. This is mostly because he's about one of the smartest fellas boarding on brilliant I have ever met and it comes across in the way he talks. Think Sheldon in the Big Bang Theory (except not as annoying). We did have this smoking hot female developer that worked for us. She was a fitness competitor but she left a few months ago. We have two male competing bodybuilders, and everyone else you meet in my company you really wouldn't really think "Geek". Our refrigerator has more water than pop, and for snacks we have Pop Chips and fruit. So, yeah...all in all we are atypical bunch of Geeks. Just dont get us started on Star Wars or StarTrek.

I do mostly enterprise stuff. As a Microsoft shop I have done a little of everything they have to offer. Since we do a lot of web development, I have been forced out of the world of server code and into client side with JavaScript and JQuery (not too happy with that at the moment, but I guess it is a skill set that I needed to get under my belt eventually).

So, I can go on and on about crap like that...and as this is not StackOverFlow, I guess I better get back on topic. I have been following your posts. Things seem to be looking somewhat better for you. Let us know what the doc says.

 

[JohnQ]

HaHa...I knew there was something I liked about you! I know what you mean, but can you really call it work if you actually like spending your off time doing it?! I am always knee deep in some code--work or otherwise. Hard to stop when you have just about perfected that newly added feature and need about "30 more minutes" to complete it.

And I get you about what your friends say about you not looking like your stereotypical software developer. The really funny thing is, there is only one person that in my company that will fit the stereotype. This is mostly because he's about one of the smartest fellas boarding on brilliant I have ever met and it comes across in the way he talks. Think Sheldon in the Big Bang Theory (except not as annoying). We did have this smoking hot female developer that worked for us. She was a fitness competitor but she left a few months ago. We have two male competing bodybuilders, and everyone else you meet in my company you really wouldn't really think "Geek". Our refrigerator has more water than pop, and for snacks we have Pop Chips and fruit. So, yeah...all in all we are atypical bunch of Geeks. Just dont get us started on Star Wars or StarTrek.

I do mostly enterprise stuff. As a Microsoft shop I have done a little of everything they have to offer. Since we do a lot of web development, I have been forced out of the world of server code and into client side with JavaScript and JQuery (not too happy with that at the moment, but I guess it is a skill set that I needed to get under my belt eventually).

So, I can go on and on about crap like that...and as this is not StackOverFlow, I guess I better get back on topic. I have been following your posts. Things seem to be looking somewhat better for you. Let us know what the doc says.

Very interesting! I am a hardcore C# developer and build enterprise application frameworks and enterprise web/desktop applications as well. I am very well-versed in design patterns and have usually been fairly demanding of those who worked with and for me. My goal is to make them better at what they do and to think in ways they never have before. Many engineers/developers become so mesmerized by bright new technologies that they lose sight of the customer and the solutions needed. I could talk enterprise development until the cows come home, but I digress...

 

[JohnQ]

I went to the doctor yesterday and I talked to her about my DE. She wants to do some blood work and wants me to see a urologist. She going to do the full battery of tests...testosterone, diabetes, thyroid and stuff like that.

I ask her about abstinence from masturbation. My dick has been DEAD since I stopped. Poor performance (low EQ) the last two times to have sex. She said there are several different trains of thought on this. She said the best advice she has from the studies she has read is to work on an individual basis. Not everyone is the same. What might work for one guy might not for the next 10.

So my thinking is to cut back as much as possible...but keep the blood flowing down there. I had better erections the day after masturbating that after 5 days of nothing.

Let me know how it goes. I suspect that I have other hormonal/chemical issues going on. Most doctors are not comfortable with anything much beyond total testosterone and free testosterone...and maybe estrogen/estradiol. There are other hormones involved as well.

 

[JohnQ]

Day 35
Penis - not as flatlined today - a bit of life but not 'normal'
Mood - yesterday being February 1st, for some reason I am must more level-headed and focused
Morning erection - laid in bed and thought about sex and achieved a partial erection. Interesting.

I started taking ViaGrowth III from the Lin Institute yesterday. Had this bottle sitting around unopened for a few months and read lots of good reviews from people with my problem. Dr Lin has an interesting site and many, many testimonials from people with over masturbation problems that have achieved recovery. The supplement is like a multi-vitamin with other things such as epimedium, tongkat ali, DHEA, deer antler velvet, carnitine and many others. I think I will take this as directed for at least a month and see what happens.

 

[JohnQ]

Day 36
Penis - a little better - hanging longer and heavier but no real stimulation today
Mood - fairly good today
Morning erection - I think I had a 70% erection this morning but don't remember

The Viagrowth III from the Lin Institute seems to be helping a bit. Been taking it for 2-3 days. Will keep everyone informed.