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[NP97]

Well, that is exactly what I'm doing now. Rather than call her, I just sent her a nice pic of my dog (I actually took it the day before he died... he was cuddling with my sisters Guinea pig), told her how two of my friends got engaged, and told her if she needs to deal with any anxiety she can still talk to my one friend (who also suffers from it) because they are friends as well. Now what was said, if you love it, set it free... That's what I'm doing. I truly believe it is meant to be with her, but just not right now... Either way, I'm done putting forth any effort.
Oh, and just because I think it's meant to be doesn't mean I'm not going out and meeting people. I'm going to the bar tonight and on new years (before I go to my buddy's and get wasted) and am going to put in effort to at least talk to women who I find attractive. Get my confidence back. Maybe I'll go with my one buddy's favorite pickup tactic.... whip it out and put it on their shoulder, they can't resist.
Thanks everyone... I'm done posting in this thread, unless something actually happens between me and my ex. Thanks again!

 

[NP97]

I just wanted to add one thing. The sex was great, and I miss that quite a bit. What she loved most was the fact that no matter how tired I was, I would ALWAYS go down on her if she wanted. Even after sex and it smelled of condom. Even if she was horny and on the rag. Didn't matter to me... sure it would taste bad sometimes, but anything for her. I hope she goes to have sex with her new bf and he has a tiny dick and doesn't give oral. That would just be icing on the cake for me.
I love this woman with all my heart... I was crying for about an hour last night, just praying and asking god to keep her and her family safe, happy and healthy always. I just am keeping my hopes up when there is no hope, so to speak. I gotta at least believe or I'll go fucking nuts, but I'm still in move-on mode. Once again, thank you everyone.

 

[NP97]

Long time no see old thread!
So I talked to her today. Hows about them apples? Just some chit-chat. I drove by her house (she lives right near where my grandfather is buried and I was driving to a friends house who was just past that) and we made eye contact as I past her. I texted her just saying I wasn't being a creeper and said what I just said in the ().
We talked for a bit. Not gonna get back with her but that felt just wonderful actually. I guess it would take her getting dumped by her douchebag alcoholic boyfriend to talk again.
Anyways, felt good. Asked her out to coffee tomorrow just to catch up.

As strange as it sounds I don't think I love her anymore, but I still care. Time together and all. It's great to have an old friend back. Truthfully, that's all I want. Although I found out about her being dumped from someone else AND WOW. Friend showed me a few pictures. I thought I changed myself for the better these past few months. DAMN. She looks GOOD. Like I said, good to have one of my best friends ever back.

 

[JonPop]

Let us know how it goes over coffee tomorrow. (jP

 

[trainingtzr]

Wow interesting stuff dude. I just popped in this thread, ill keep an eye man.

Btw, a lot of respect for the way you are !

 

[Pirate]

Good luck, NP.
Stay happy, shipmate.

 

[NP97]

Aye, went well. We just shot the sh*t basically.
She hurt herself (again) and has to get surgery on her knee (again). Talked about our pets and me moving and how it got pushed back because those bungholes dropped out of the sale. Dropped her off at her house and gave her mum a big ole' hug and had a beer with her dad. Her dog raped my face with licks (as usual).
Good time actually, it was really nice just to catch up. I wouldn't get back together with her, at least not anytime soon. It's just really, really nice to be on speaking terms with her again. Too bad I wont see her for a while, gonna be hopped up on pain pills after her surgery next week.

 

[Batwoman]

That sounds really nice, except for the knee surgery part.
If you care about someone, it's just so good to be able to stay in touch without hard feelings. I'm glad for you both.