Need help guys, i've been suffering from Hard Flaccid for 3-4 years now. I've tried hindi squats belly breathing and no fap, but the improvements seem to be transient and I feel like ejaculation just puts me back to square one so it feels impossible to overcome.
symptoms have gotten worse over time and everything seems to be left leaning:
-left testicle fluctuates in size but is sometimes extremely small and extremely tight against my body, basically doesn't hang unless its in the mornings, but its much smaller
-mornings flaccid penis is looser but gets super hard throughout the day.
-feeling of discomfort around my left testicle area, the feeling is much stronger the more my testicle is stuck to my body, so it has less to do with the testicle and more to do with the tightness i think.
-my flaccid penis is pulled to the left when it is in hard flaccid mode, when it is loose in the morning there is no pull. When my penis comes down from an erection it also seems to be pulled to the left. Something is definitely going on with that side.
-loss of libido, libido is noticeably mostly when sleeping.
This all started when I had really bad OCD and I had developed a habit of masturbating and doing so with forced kegels to relieve the stress. Unfortunately during one particularly stressful time I forced myself to masturbating and I remember having to kegel hard just to maintain an erection and eventually ejaculating all of which were forced. Right after I ejaculated my penis developed the symptoms and started to lean to the left immediately. I believe I strained the muscle or perhaps even worse. I went to a urologist who told me there was nothing wrong and so I thought maybe it was all because of my OCD/mental stress, and subsequently i continued to force erections and masturbate pretending that it was all fine. This has only made things much worse.
I have now gotten my OCD under control and I feel alright aside from this issue. I feel however in my case its primarily a physical issue. When I had really bad OCD, i never had erection problems like this.
I would like to know if perhaps i have torn the muscle, perhaps never gave it the time to heal and it is now permanently compromised. Mentally I am wondering if i should just accept that this is permanent and make the best of my situation. The hope of it going away and seemingly never getting measureably better is probably at this point causing more pain than the physical condition.
symptoms have gotten worse over time and everything seems to be left leaning:
-left testicle fluctuates in size but is sometimes extremely small and extremely tight against my body, basically doesn't hang unless its in the mornings, but its much smaller
-mornings flaccid penis is looser but gets super hard throughout the day.
-feeling of discomfort around my left testicle area, the feeling is much stronger the more my testicle is stuck to my body, so it has less to do with the testicle and more to do with the tightness i think.
-my flaccid penis is pulled to the left when it is in hard flaccid mode, when it is loose in the morning there is no pull. When my penis comes down from an erection it also seems to be pulled to the left. Something is definitely going on with that side.
-loss of libido, libido is noticeably mostly when sleeping.
This all started when I had really bad OCD and I had developed a habit of masturbating and doing so with forced kegels to relieve the stress. Unfortunately during one particularly stressful time I forced myself to masturbating and I remember having to kegel hard just to maintain an erection and eventually ejaculating all of which were forced. Right after I ejaculated my penis developed the symptoms and started to lean to the left immediately. I believe I strained the muscle or perhaps even worse. I went to a urologist who told me there was nothing wrong and so I thought maybe it was all because of my OCD/mental stress, and subsequently i continued to force erections and masturbate pretending that it was all fine. This has only made things much worse.
I have now gotten my OCD under control and I feel alright aside from this issue. I feel however in my case its primarily a physical issue. When I had really bad OCD, i never had erection problems like this.
I would like to know if perhaps i have torn the muscle, perhaps never gave it the time to heal and it is now permanently compromised. Mentally I am wondering if i should just accept that this is permanent and make the best of my situation. The hope of it going away and seemingly never getting measureably better is probably at this point causing more pain than the physical condition.
