Ok. In my preliminary practices of kegels, jelqing, warm ups and stretches, I feel I've drastically underestimated my porn dependency. I don't know how severe it is, but I know just about every time I look up porn, it gets me hard. I still wake up with morning wood - and this morning especially (after a day and a half without ejaculating).
But I know I exhibit enough of the side effects I want to cut porn completely and change my life, not just my ED or EQ. But as it relates: I have trouble getting hard enough to jelq consistently, unless I'm stimulating myself with porn. I know my porn viewing habits have gotten much more hardcore over the past year, and I know my EQ has gone down in the same time. As has my physical shape, my diet, my sleep cycle and a host of other things.
I'll make it a ceremony tonight with one final viewing (mostly b/c I had gone soft after I finished a session of jelqs and began trying some V-jelqs - it pissed me off and I knew I'd get hard if I looked up something online... but that codependence really pisses me off), then I'm going cold turkey. At times in the past I've tried to "taper" myself off porn, but it never has worked. I'll keep updating my porn abstinence on my personal journal - my next post coming this Sunday (hopefully day 2 of no-porn). I haven't had much trouble getting hard without visual stimulus -until recently. I want to be able to get hard whenever I want (within reasonable limits), as hard as I possibly can. In the words of a wise man, "I've lost my mojo." I'm gonna get it back., one step at a time.
... but just wanted some long term confirmation... any notice of change mentally or physically
