I used to edge to porn for great amounts of time. At first, sure every now and then, but then the sessions kept getting longer and longer, and more often. I was chasing that dopamine rush like a heroin addict chases that needle. I couldn't get enough, I needed more. I was officially a fap edging porn addict. I was fapping in ways that sex could never replicate. I would reach arousal levels that sex would have a difficult time reaching, and I would stay there for hours. I nailed it! I became a plateau edging God. Bullturd.
After my edging sessions I would be so fried to the world, literally numb, incoherent, almost like a heroin addict coming down from a high. I'm honestly surprised nobody asked me if I was using drugs, or something.
I will admit, I miss the high extreme levels of arousal, very very much. My GF gets so aroused during sex that at times I honestly think she's faking it, but the truth is, all the damn porn edging has numb me. It literally has robbed me. I'm jealous of her. I can touch her leg and she'll get wet.
I'm constantly craving that level of arousal and pleasure during sex, and it crushes me when I don't get it.
I wish this on nobody.
Day 8, NoFap.
Day 8... I deserve Dairy Queen.