ok i never meant to give the wrong impression but i only ever wanted sex. Shes very attractive and has many qualities i like, but she is seven years my senior so eventually i would begin to either annoy or bore her. As far as i understood it she only wanted sex as well, i was someone she liked but she was attached and wanted a fling. Yes i was doing a bad thing but the responsibility fell on her shoulders. Not to mention this kind of behavior would be completely unacceptable for anyone i considered dating lol. Dating isnt even something im considering yet, im 22. my brain is not going to quit growing or changing for another 2 years, how can i possibly know what i want? A relationship at this point in my life is just a sham, leading some poor girl on for sex. I prefer being honest and letting them know i want sex in the first place. The majority of them agree with this and realize they want the same thing to. the rearranging fate thing was really meant as a joke, if the abcess does come back i will probably try to make it so im in there on her shift, but im praying it does not come back lol, its quite painful.
As for the phone call, i dont want to get her in trouble, so i wont be asking for her. He will want to know how i got her number and i will have planted the evil seed of mistrust. If shes a cheating slut there is not much i can do about it to better the situation, although washing my hands of it does not make me any better either, so with no clear right thing to do i might as well go for personal gratification. But do you think its a real number even? why would she give me a house a number? that doesnt make sense, why would she risk me talking to him.