Im one of the guys that have that problem.
And yes there is something wrong upstairs .
I know i dossent matter who she has sleept did with or have big the might have been , i know i myself is very big, i know all that , that only makes the problem worse because if you cant end the bad thoughts with reasoning then have do you cure the pain , because i assure you the pain unreal , its like seeing the love of your live getting fucked by a huge cock man while screaming have much better it felt then you did.
Pain not even my worst enemy should suffer from.
I have read and read and read about the subject , and im also seeing a psychologist now.
The thing is that this is a problem that first surfaced with my current girl, because this one is really the first woman I have ever been with I really never ever want to be separated from , I love her so freaking much.
I have had 100?`s of crushes sleept with 50 girls ,and been in loving relationships before, but now I know that deep down I was always searching for something better , when i meet this girl everything just clicked and and 1.5 years im more in love then ever.
I have deep emotional wounds that go back to my childhood, it's a long story , but basically my parents left me , I loved them so much and the hurt me far more then eny words can ever describe.
The love i feel for my girl is as powerful as what i felt for them, and deep down i afraid that she will hurt me like the did,,
Thats the science behind it, the problem is not the cock its the fear of loosing , and somhave because she is large down there and love my big cock, and there for big cock in genersal im afraid that i dont quit measure up and she will eventualy leave me or be unfatefull with a more velendowed man, and i freaking keep seeing it in my mind.
And no i have never asked her if i where her biggest, and i wont want to know , i just want to stop thinking about it because it drives me mad,
The cynical truth is IF she flat out told me that I have the biggest cock she has ever experienced and if it was one milimeter bigger she would leave me. then I feel everything would be fine and I hope that with PE with time she will tell it to me.
Sad sad sad i know , and i know its so wrong but my emotions are letting me down.
She know is a big issue for me and I know she really want to tell me it's the biggest , but she is an honest person and I dont think she is capable of lying.
I have a real shitty day, and to tell the truth I slept so bad last night because I kept dreaming her leaving me ,and having sex with other people.
It will end real bad if i dont find a way to get past this sh*t, and leaving her is not an option because then i would defiantly be the end of me
