No, I don't. I am not sure if meditation works for me. It kinda does probably, but the stress comes from the childhood and schemes I created to "survive".
As for the emotional visualisation, I just heard about it. I know I can bring some memories and some emotions attached to it. The emotions are even more vivid than the pictures. From time to time I get a flash of such memories and after processing what I remember and what I feel, I feed my self confidence with it. Because most of them are positive, but I ended up burying them, as feeling any proud of myself was programmed as "wrong".
I am currently on a therapy for 6 months and we have many subjects open. I can already feel and see changes the therapy gave me, but most importantly, how isotretinoin gave me the last and most powerful kick in my mental (and physical) butt. After just 4 months of taking the smallest dose I had most of side effects, lost 8 kg, lost self confidence, lost strength and gained depression, mental & physical fatigue, tics, back pain and so on.
However, I am on the brighter side now, off isotretinoit for good, 8 months now. I know I have to and I want to change my life approach and schemes. If it cures my PreE - great. If not - I will try to find another way. The road I had to take to being here was rough, but here I am.
