hello everyone, well i'm actually writing this intro, more for myself. i'd like to go back to this thread after 1 year and see how i was doing 1 year ago.
i've done a lot of reading in this forum and i can say out of all the forums i know, this forum might be the one that offers big help for men like me who wants some change.
ok first of all i'm in my early 20s, i'm a filipino. i have a minor mental ED, i say minor because i can actually have a successful sex without my penis chickening out like 50-50 of the time, and i can say it's mental because my penis has a good EQ when i masturbate and during blowjobs.
i started having these problems back in high school, i've been watching porn a lot since i was 14. i had a girlfriend that time, a beautiful chinese girl, she was afraid of having sex but there was a situation whee she was about to give in, the problem is, during that situation, i wasn't hard enough to enter her.
so i continued watching porn, completely naive of the effects it's having on me. and it got worse, i developed a new hobby or addiction, making a girl fake account in facebook, she's gotta be completely hot and have sexy pictures, and i will get all the attention i want from lots and lots of friends from FB, and i get turned on whenever say sexual stuff in my fake account's picture comments. this addiction continued on for 6 years.
i'm a short guy, i only stand 5,3(163cm) in height, but i dont look bad, i have a pretty decent built too, so from time to time i get to go home with a chick. the problem is my ED, there were times that i was successful in entering but after a while my erection will be gone, so to tell you the truth, all of my sexual encounters have ended badly. i've experienced a lot of humiliation, i've been called a weak guy, and one hooker even told me this like "i thought your dick is big, geez but you got a small one", allow me to explain, she thought my dick was big because we have a rumor here in this country that big nose and pointy nose means a big dick guy. not me though, my dick is only 4" in length, i'm not sure about the girth, but it's not great either.
i just used to tell myself.. those girls were just not hot enough for me that's why i don't get hard. i'm pretty sure once i get my type of girl i will bonk her like a turbo machine.
then came my lucky break, i got a korean girlfriend! here in the philippines, getting a korean girlfriend is a jackpot, you see korean dreamas, and korean music are really popular here, and they're cute and have a really white skin. most filipina girls are brown skinned so a white skinned girl is out of the ordinary.
she's totally my type, cute eyes, really good fashion sense, has that cute bangs, she's sexy and funny everything i want in a girl.
she made me wait 2 months for sex, but i didn't really mind because i was allowed to touch her everywhere, and she was a really great girlfriend. she introduced me to all of her friends, allowed me to learn korean culture from them, we just totally had fun.
and then came the moment, we were laying in bed cuddling, i can feel her hands slowly reaching for my dick, even at that moment i was beginning to get hard, and hard it did. she was giving me bad handjob(bad i assume because she told me she only had sex a few times before, so she doesnt have lots of experiences, even her blowjob was the worst i ever had). anway, i reached out to her pussy and i was surprised how wet it was, it was really really wet. so i proceeded to take off her shorts and underwear, moved on top of her. and i was rubbing my dick on her very wet pussy, no hands. and after a few rubs, it entered. it felt really good. it felt like it was my first time, and i actually treat it like my first time because all the sex i had before wasn't finished because of my ED.
it felt really really good, to finally have sex and with my type of girl, the only problem was.. after maybe just 20 seconds, i came. and inside her.
in my head.. i was like.. no.. i already have an ED, small dick, and now even premature ejaculation?? what happened to all those days and hours masturbating for long hours, even doing edging!!
well even though it was so fast, she didn't really mind, and actually was happy and a good mood after that sex, she also told me she doesn't really care about my small dick, although she sometimes makes a joke about it, she didn't really care.
after that night, we had sex lots of times, and thankfully, most of those times, i lasted at least 3 minutes or so. but there were times that my ED affected me, and took me a lot of time to get it hard, thus killing the mood, but she's a great girl so she waited for me. but there were times that we just gave up and i can tell she was disappointed.
well, i had a lot of great sex with her, but it got myself to thinking.. during that relationship, even though i had one of the hottest girls i can ever dream of, i still masturbated to my fake girl accounts or to porn. what is wrong with me?? if only i had reserved all my libido and testosterone on her then probably we never had those disappointing moments and i would've been a better lover.
she already moved back to korea to finish her studies there, so now i have a lot of free time for myself.
and what i'm thinking to do with those free time is to make myself better, i lack height so i will compensate by getting a sexy body.
also its really hard, and i hope this forum will help with this.. quitting porn, and making those stupid fake girl accounts.
i already deleted my fake girl account, deleted all her pictures, and used k9 protection to block porn sites.
after one day i feel free, like i'm clean or something, but even as i'm typing right now, i can feel my penis itching for my hand to masturbate it.
actually i've tried to quit a lot of times before, and its really hard, that's why i'm here, i hope i can meet some friends here with the same problem of quitting, and just help each other out. i think i can't do this alone anymore. i'm really determined, but this addiction have had its grip on me for a long long time. wish me luck.
after 3 months of rebooting, i plan to start on JPs 90 beginner technique.
i've done a lot of reading in this forum and i can say out of all the forums i know, this forum might be the one that offers big help for men like me who wants some change.
ok first of all i'm in my early 20s, i'm a filipino. i have a minor mental ED, i say minor because i can actually have a successful sex without my penis chickening out like 50-50 of the time, and i can say it's mental because my penis has a good EQ when i masturbate and during blowjobs.
i started having these problems back in high school, i've been watching porn a lot since i was 14. i had a girlfriend that time, a beautiful chinese girl, she was afraid of having sex but there was a situation whee she was about to give in, the problem is, during that situation, i wasn't hard enough to enter her.
so i continued watching porn, completely naive of the effects it's having on me. and it got worse, i developed a new hobby or addiction, making a girl fake account in facebook, she's gotta be completely hot and have sexy pictures, and i will get all the attention i want from lots and lots of friends from FB, and i get turned on whenever say sexual stuff in my fake account's picture comments. this addiction continued on for 6 years.
i'm a short guy, i only stand 5,3(163cm) in height, but i dont look bad, i have a pretty decent built too, so from time to time i get to go home with a chick. the problem is my ED, there were times that i was successful in entering but after a while my erection will be gone, so to tell you the truth, all of my sexual encounters have ended badly. i've experienced a lot of humiliation, i've been called a weak guy, and one hooker even told me this like "i thought your dick is big, geez but you got a small one", allow me to explain, she thought my dick was big because we have a rumor here in this country that big nose and pointy nose means a big dick guy. not me though, my dick is only 4" in length, i'm not sure about the girth, but it's not great either.
i just used to tell myself.. those girls were just not hot enough for me that's why i don't get hard. i'm pretty sure once i get my type of girl i will bonk her like a turbo machine.
then came my lucky break, i got a korean girlfriend! here in the philippines, getting a korean girlfriend is a jackpot, you see korean dreamas, and korean music are really popular here, and they're cute and have a really white skin. most filipina girls are brown skinned so a white skinned girl is out of the ordinary.
she's totally my type, cute eyes, really good fashion sense, has that cute bangs, she's sexy and funny everything i want in a girl.
she made me wait 2 months for sex, but i didn't really mind because i was allowed to touch her everywhere, and she was a really great girlfriend. she introduced me to all of her friends, allowed me to learn korean culture from them, we just totally had fun.
and then came the moment, we were laying in bed cuddling, i can feel her hands slowly reaching for my dick, even at that moment i was beginning to get hard, and hard it did. she was giving me bad handjob(bad i assume because she told me she only had sex a few times before, so she doesnt have lots of experiences, even her blowjob was the worst i ever had). anway, i reached out to her pussy and i was surprised how wet it was, it was really really wet. so i proceeded to take off her shorts and underwear, moved on top of her. and i was rubbing my dick on her very wet pussy, no hands. and after a few rubs, it entered. it felt really good. it felt like it was my first time, and i actually treat it like my first time because all the sex i had before wasn't finished because of my ED.
it felt really really good, to finally have sex and with my type of girl, the only problem was.. after maybe just 20 seconds, i came. and inside her.
in my head.. i was like.. no.. i already have an ED, small dick, and now even premature ejaculation?? what happened to all those days and hours masturbating for long hours, even doing edging!!
well even though it was so fast, she didn't really mind, and actually was happy and a good mood after that sex, she also told me she doesn't really care about my small dick, although she sometimes makes a joke about it, she didn't really care.
after that night, we had sex lots of times, and thankfully, most of those times, i lasted at least 3 minutes or so. but there were times that my ED affected me, and took me a lot of time to get it hard, thus killing the mood, but she's a great girl so she waited for me. but there were times that we just gave up and i can tell she was disappointed.
well, i had a lot of great sex with her, but it got myself to thinking.. during that relationship, even though i had one of the hottest girls i can ever dream of, i still masturbated to my fake girl accounts or to porn. what is wrong with me?? if only i had reserved all my libido and testosterone on her then probably we never had those disappointing moments and i would've been a better lover.
she already moved back to korea to finish her studies there, so now i have a lot of free time for myself.
and what i'm thinking to do with those free time is to make myself better, i lack height so i will compensate by getting a sexy body.
also its really hard, and i hope this forum will help with this.. quitting porn, and making those stupid fake girl accounts.
i already deleted my fake girl account, deleted all her pictures, and used k9 protection to block porn sites.
after one day i feel free, like i'm clean or something, but even as i'm typing right now, i can feel my penis itching for my hand to masturbate it.
actually i've tried to quit a lot of times before, and its really hard, that's why i'm here, i hope i can meet some friends here with the same problem of quitting, and just help each other out. i think i can't do this alone anymore. i'm really determined, but this addiction have had its grip on me for a long long time. wish me luck.
after 3 months of rebooting, i plan to start on JPs 90 beginner technique.
