Penis atrophy/shrinkage due to low T and lack/zero blood flow?

[boy of misery]

Hello, I'm 19. Plz forgive me before for posting this Berlin's wall of text..

So..

I've been googling these time looking for the culprit why my penis and testicles have never been as big as they were when I was 14. It used to be 6/6.5 inch, now it's only 5/5.5 inch when erects, also is a lot thinner and less muscular, like a 13 y/o's dick who'd just entered puberty. It also has loose skin when erects, so it looks like a 40-60 y/o man's u see in amateurs.

When I was 15, I suffered from eating disorder which made me severely underweight (100 lbs, 5'8 tall), and I stayed that weight for a while. I'm sure my testosterone level was messed/washed up cuz my body felt n looked like sh*t that time. I also developed a bad body circulatory health/lacked blood flow by sitting too much playing online pc games at the game center and rarely did exercise. Sometimes I didn't sleep or drink water at all which had made things worse.

There's this one time, when I was still on that verge-of-death weight 100 lbs, where I played the game for 3 days, and didn't sleep/drink/eat at all. I was collapsed walking on the way home. The thing was, during those consecutive 3 days playing games and a few resting days after, my flaccid penis shrank to less than a cm, like there's only the foreskin left. It was and felt lifeless, the glans became SUPER small, my balls also disappeared. It got better a little after a while, but still..

Those 3 days were only the climaxes. I still played games '24/7' like crazy autism fck after that, but not as severe as before. Maybe, 1-2 days of starving and not sleeping max once for a while. This habit occured for 4 years till I'm 19 now. There were ups in my life as opposed to downs throughout these years though.. But, not as much as the downs..

So, the point is my penis lacks blood flow and testosterone these years, so it rarely has spontanious erections and if it HAS one, it rarely EXPANDS to its max and lasts very fast. I do masturbate regularly like 1/2 times a day, but it could only achieve 60-70% erection quality. I also cum in 1-2 minutes just to get the 'release' sensation. So, it still lacks blood flow here.

Will some of the penis tissue atrophy from lack of EXPANDING? Have u ever heard stories from sum1 who's been impotent/not having erections for a long time and reported that their penis shrinks? Penis atrophy? I could provide links if u wanna see. Like these ones:

http://www.prostate-cancer.org/education/andind/Guess_TestosteroneSideEffects.html

http://sci.rutgers.edu/forum/showthread.php?t=7330

http://www.phoenix5.org/sexaids/basics/penile/comments.html

They r not scams, r they? No..

Moreover, I have suspicion, during those 'deadly 3 days' and a few days after, my penis got 'zero' blood flow. So, it was 'dead' for a week. Will there be any tissue lost during those days? Cuz penises r supposed to be filled by blood, like EVERYDAY.

I've been asking this q on yahoo answers, and some people says 'It's not true. It won't atrophy. It's not a muscle bla bla bla'.

Ofc, even if all of u lack EXPANDING the penis by rarely do masturbation/sex, u still get (good) random/nocturnal erections to make sure it's still in a good state (that's what nature has made function of those auto-erections), so u r all safe.

It's freakin frightenin. When googling I've seen people reporting penis atrophy cuz of hormonal and blood flow problem and claiming the size never comes back.

Please help me, I'm just 19, not some 50 y/os. I'm a man, u r a man, we both know that a problem in this area is freakin depressing.

Then again, don't comment about the size already, if u know u COULD HAVE been bigger, it's a problem, right? And I've measured correctly, I'm sure.

Also, I'm thinking about the possibility of stunted growth here due to the lack of EXPANDING and blood flow (growth hormones r in the blood). Man, I entered puberty at 13, in a year it grew to 6 inchers already. I shouldve been having a 7 inch (knowing that I'm 19 and never was an early bloomer), not a shrinking penis.

One more, the possibility of my penis tissue burnt to be converted to calories due to my starvation and severe underweight of 100 lbs..

Finally, about making appointments with doctors/professionals.. I'm having a problem with cash atm, like monthly expenses, rents, other fees and stuff. So, internet is my only solution atm.. Hoping that some people (who might be ex-sufferers of my problem) would share stories, exps, advices, and hopes..

 

[CUSP82]

Well first off two identical threads about the same thing is not really what we do here so if you don't get an answer as soon as you want it try to be patient.
You will not beleive a word I say and you won't like what I am going to tell you but in a bit when I have more time I will be back and put some things to reason.

 

[boy of misery]

Well first off two identical threads about the same thing is not really what we do here so if you don't get an answer as soon as you want it try to be patient.
You will not beleive a word I say and you won't like what I am going to tell you but in a bit when I have more time I will be back and put some things to reason.

I'm sorry I'm still new to this forum. Won't do that again

So, u'll carry bad news, huh. Holy fck.. I knew it! Haha. But, it's okay, it's better than trying to make me feel good, while the problem is right THERE, in front of my eyes, and I see it everyday and can't escape from it.

I want to see some real medical facts about it, cuz based from what I've found on Google, this kind of problem is rare.. People would've gone to see a doctor even when only a little problem occurs on their sexual health, so the problem won't be prolonged. But, I suffered from a 'doesnt care about me, my body, and dick' state for 3-4 years by doing crazy sh*t like playing games 24/7.

Now, that I'm 19 and has 'woke up', the medical complications show up..

Fck..

 

[CUSP82]

Your body is an incredible thing. Oh you can shut it down by being bad to it but it will return to function when it's ready ( or when you start eating again). You did bad things to your body as well as your dick and it just shut down. Was any damage permanent? The odds are not and not to your dick. You may have rattled around some internal organs that weren't really happy with you but you dick did not get harmed.

You are a boy of misery as you yourself said.Your stressed, your miserable, and you believe that you hurt your dick by not doing the right thing. You lost inches because of no blood flow, which is really impossible to have no blood flow but you know you did. It couldn't be that when you were 14 you may have measured wrong. I know everything that I did at 14 I always did everything perfect.

Besides being miserable you're also frightened. You also don't have money to go see a doctor to fix you. You turn to the interent for your solution and what you have found is more stuff to give you stress because 95% of what you read on the internet is bullshit.

Your problem lies in that area just above your shoulders that we call a "head". You are miserable, stressed, frightened, broke, guilt ridden from your past. I tell you if you want a recipe for a dick not to work just read what I just finished writing. The problem, no matter what you think you have done. is in your head. I know you won't believe it because it is so much easier to think that it's a physical one but it's not. Fix your head and all will be well.

 

[boy of misery]

Thanks.. Actually I'd like to believe u, and I've already believed how amazing our body mechanisms r and their capabilities to heal thenselves. But, it's not in my 'head', see. I'm not delusional or anything. The problem persists, and is clearly there, it IS smaller. Penises r different from our other organs, they r sensitive.

These r the websites which include in the 5% non-bs websites u've mentioned before:

Preventing and Treating the Side Effects of Testosterone Deprivation Therapy in Men with Prostate Cancer A Guide for Patients and Physicians - Prostate Cancer Research Institute

Is Viagra being used to prevent penile shrinkage? - CareCure Forums

Comments about penile shrinkage after prostate cancer surgery

And there r still some more..

They don't look like scams, more like real medical support websites. They r mentioning 'to prevent shrinkage/atrophy'.

Edited: I've done no drugs my entire life..

 

[Toadstool]

Those first two links are .edu websites and are one of the most credible sources of information you can find. I could use them in a university paper, no problem.

but what CUSP said is true. It could very well all be in your head. I know depression is addictive, and anxiety is hard to get over. You have to say A) either there IS permanent damage and now there's nothing to do but deal with it constructively, or B) I'm wrong and there is no damage, so thank God and start treating myself better

The body recovers from worse things than what you've gone through. It will just take some time. You're going to need to heal your whole body, not just your dick. Learn to treat yourself properly and the results will be reflected in your size.

The real problem might be that your dick is staying proportional to the rest of your body. Have you gotten up to a healthier weight? You were so malnourished that you went into starvation mode. Maybe some of the tissues making up your penis were destroyed to keep you alive.

 

[beachbay]

You need to go see a doctor soon! Dont scrounge on the internet looking for the holy grail trust me you will go insane. You cant make a breakthrough that no one else has found. If your symptoms dont improve i would really get checked up. Also do you drink alot of caffeine and energy drinks? Im guessing you do since you game all the time. They are vasodilators and limit blood flow. I would kick that firstly.

 

[boy of misery]

I didn't drink 'AT ALL' including those coffee and energy drinks, I dehydrated instead.

I've measured correctly, in fact there's this thing I've had for years that was used to compare my size to.

Also, about my dick's staying proportionate.. No.. I even think my body frame had shrunk as well, like the bones and muscles. Also, I only grew an inch in height during my 15th to 19th birthday.

Meeting doctor.. Yeahhh I want it so badly, but it's impossible atm.

 

[j83]

Just find a way of talking to a proper doctor. You can't self-diagnose by doing Google searches and asking strangers in Yahoo Answers and penis stretching forums. Health care doesn't work that way. Doctors have a decade of intensive training for a reason.

In the mean time, forget about your dick - in the grand scheme of things an inch of flesh really isn't that important. Eat properly (i.e. make food using raw ingredients - it's cheaper as well); drink water; exercise sensibly. Feel better in yourself, then worry about what's in your trousers.

 

[boy of misery]

Just find a way of talking to a proper doctor. You can't self-diagnose by doing Google searches and asking strangers in Yahoo Answers and penis stretching forums. Health care doesn't work that way. Doctors have a decade of intensive training for a reason.

In the mean time, forget about your dick - in the grand scheme of things an inch of flesh really isn't that important. Eat properly (i.e. make food using raw ingredients - it's cheaper as well); drink water; exercise sensibly. Feel better in yourself, then worry about what's in your trousers.

I'm not self-diagnosing. Based on what I've written in the last paragraph of my first post-currently it's impossible to see a doctor, so I'm just hoping there's sum1 who's suffered from health damage as severe as mine to share exps.

As for doing the right things for now-I no longer play games. I eat 3-5 a day, lots of proteins, and carbs. I bike sometimes.

 

[boy of misery]

bump!

 

[Toadstool]

So, a couple of months later. Have you been doing any PE? Have you seen any progress? How's your health doing?

 

[boy of misery]

I didn't do any PEs. I did it a few months ago, before my first post in here. I tried jelqing. But, my dick became weird, the sensation/feeling of it felt weird, even till today, after months of PEs abstinence.. Maybe I've damaged it..

 

[TheSperminator]

My advice to you: eat like a beast, drink water!, start running or lifting weights .. But seriously the eating part is most important .. You're body gets energy out of your food it's necessary to stay healthy man .. It needs protein, carbs, etc .. You're ruining your body for not eating .. Respect your body

 

[superpp]

Thanks.. Actually I'd like to believe u, and I've already believed how amazing our body mechanisms r and their capabilities to heal thenselves. But, it's not in my 'head', see. I'm not delusional or anything. The problem persists, and is clearly there, it IS smaller. Penises r different from our other organs, they r sensitive.

These r the websites which include in the 5% non-bs websites u've mentioned before:

Preventing and Treating the Side Effects of Testosterone Deprivation Therapy in Men with Prostate Cancer A Guide for Patients and Physicians - Prostate Cancer Research Institute

Is Viagra being used to prevent penile shrinkage? - CareCure Forums

Comments about penile shrinkage after prostate cancer surgery

And there r still some more..

They don't look like scams, more like real medical support websites. They r mentioning 'to prevent shrinkage/atrophy'.

Edited: I've done no drugs my entire life..

There exists a blood test where by it can tell you about your testosterone and when they do this test they will tell you if its Low or High, if its low im sure a doctor can recommend something to help and on the other end if its too high... When you get time and money try going for this test along with others maybe as you are young its something that can be fixed.