Guys - I must say... so far, TTBB is spot on with this girl I'm seeing. She came over last night, even though she needed to study for an exam (which she's still confident she aced), when I told her not to - that she should study. She came over and we baked sugar cookies together and decorated them... well actually, I butchered the first two batches and she laughed at me playfully and then made the last 2 which actually came out nicely... we still decorated them all. She finally left around 1130pm to go home to bed to get up early to study, but... I felt so bad.
Well anyhow.. upon this time... she told me straight up, she knew her priorities and said if she didn't want to come and wanted to study... she would've. She ditched her friends to study... but ditched studying to see me... which I got angry about b/c I told her school comes first!!
She smiled at me and said, "I know".
Well... regardless, we had a ton of fun... ie I can cook a gourmet meal, but can't bake for sh*t!
anyhow.. after the fun and sloppy cookie games... (SHE made me a round cookie and decorated it with a heart and insisted I ate it... which I did)
...I closed my door and asked her if she liked me...
.....she started crying.
.....I picked her chin up and she took my hand. (cue a romantic movie theme here... literally)
..She told me her ex is her life... her other half. She's gotten over people in the past fairly easily, but she does not expect to ever get back with him. I reiterated to her I'm a big boy... I know the conscious decision I'm making, no strings attached. She smiled at me. We talked about her boundaries of talking bout her ex and her rebounds...
She told me she knows she crosses the line and apologizes. I told her it's ok. I'm happy she trusts me to confide in me... She looked at me and told me she enjoys where this is going... with her 2 rebounds since her ex (over the summer)... she was drunk and felt really disgusting and ran back to her ex crying.... but when her and I hooked up, she felt weird, but didn't feel disgusting. And that she didn't run back to her ex.... but having known eachother for so long, he knew something was different about her... and she confided in him about me... and was afraid of hurting me. He told her he's happy that she found someone like me and that I'm a big boy and making a conscious decision (she was freaked out that I told her the exact same thing he told her the night before)
Does it bother me she still talks to him? Yes. Am I worried? Yes. Am I seeing the red flags? Yes.
Do I wish to pursue this no strings attached? Yes.
She told me last night... it scares her... she really, really likes me.
so TTBB.. thank you
