My story - long, depressing, hoping for a new beginning

[CUSP82]

Wait a minute! Did I miss something? You left your wife?

 

[haroldo]

I know exactly how you feel, believe me. Of course, you've been married for almost 20 years and I've been with my girlfriend for 3, but something similar happened to me...
Anyway, I get VERY depressed from time to time... it's pretty hard, but I try to remember that there are other things in life that are much more important, like loosing someone or something you love (my dog has recently died and we were as close as "meat and nail", as we say here in my country)... you know, sometimes we have to think about or experience disgraces like that to keep a good perspective of what really matters...

So... about your wife remembering previous experiences and everything... well... I can only say this is not the kind of crap I would tolerate. It's just my opinion, some people would say I'm an idiot, but being able to tolerate this kind of thing has no relation to stupidity whatsoever. Some people can, some can't. Just like there are guys who enjoy watching their wives fucking another man, and some don't. I don't ever remember about previous experiences when I am having sex with my girl because I just don't need it, and to me it would be like I was cheating her in some way. BUT it's just my personal opinion. I don't judge people who do it, unless they were doing it to me. Life is not black or white...

Anyway man... I hope you'll get better. I hope we'll get better. It's hard, but we have to keep living. I am still with my girl because she loves me and I love her. In our own way. But love means different things to different people.

 

[Mr.Friend]

To start I must say I am very impressed with the amount of guys here that are open and honest about the size of their penis. In the real world no one has a 5" dick. I think everyone knows what I mean by this.

I was always insecure about my own member for years despite the fact that I had read everywhere that I was falling in that great average spectrum that most guys fall into (I was around 5.5" forever). It didn't matter because this was still an issue with me. Despite the fact that I was very well built even at a young age and fairly attractive, I suffered a lot of self conscious issues before sex because of what I felt like was an inadequate member.

A year ago after being totally natural I decided to go ahead and take the plunge and get on anabolic steroids. My test levels had already been tested out as low so I went with a hormone replacement doctor and they fixed me up. Over the course of the year my member grew a full inch to 6.5 without doing any PE. My girth also improved but I am not sure by how much. A significant amount.

So 16 years ago (yes 16) I met this girl and we fell in love, got married, etc. The past few years our sex life has become more open in terms of both talk and what we did (we had a few threesomes with other women). Recently she disclosed to me that before she met me that she had been with a guy that was bigger than me. This did not bother me now. I pretty much figured that most women I was with had been with guys bigger than me, including her, and my new growth made me feel a lot more secure.

For some reason however, I felt the need to prod to actually know how much bigger this former bf was. Eventually she told me that "well it's hard for most women to orgasm with the man on top. He was the only guy big enough to make me orgasm everytime he was on top." I pretty much felt like someone shot me through the gut at that point. That means for 15 years being with me in that position was sub par and that she had also lied to me about some other things sexually. Combine that with the fact that she would get incredibly wet when she talked about former experiences with him while we were having sex and that pretty much ended it for me, and us. It may sound shallow but it's just something I can't overcome. Everyone has their own personal issues I suppose.

So that's how I ended up here. I know at 6.5" x 5 I should feel good about what I have but I don't after this. I don't want to ever feel inadequate or insecure again. I figure that a simple inch on length and half an inch on girth would put me in pretty good company. So I really just want to get there and cement those gains.

When di you end up getting testosterone treatment my friend? At what age?

 

[Panther]

Size is good - why else would be all be here. However, its not the end of the story nor even the beginning. Sex is so much more than how big your package is or how larger her chest is. Learn the female body and how to please it. A 5.5 inch dick is plenty big enough to do this - that's where I started and my gf had great orgasms. Now at 6.5 inches and, while it makes me feel better, she still has great orgasms.

75% or more of sex is in the head. Do what she likes...talk dirty, pull hair, spank, sweet talk, tell her you love her...whatever makes her purr. You make her feel wanted, needed and special (hot and fiery too) along with some good skills and you'll rock her world no matter how big.

 

[thundercock-007]

haha so true.. girls saying size doesn't matter is such a lie. I hate knowing your just average when other guys are packing cannons guess some of us gotta work hard to get there.

 

[Sampson]

Hey guys,

First off no I did not leave my wife. We've been together 16 years and while this one was pretty rough to begin with we've worked through it.

Second, our sex life is awesome. It really wasn't about "sex life" but things that were said and things that were hidden over the course of those 16 years. Nothing she did was underhanded in a way to hurt me, but really to keep from hurting me.

We talked about the fact that she got turned on by talking about the other guy but really it came down to just the fact that she gets turned on when we talk about her with even a faceless/nameless guy too. It's really more about the moment than the person. We say all sorts of sh*t in dirty talk. I guess after a few weeks it just started to make me think why was it that she wanted to talk about an ex, and got so turned on by it. I really don't care now, it was just surprising at first.

Some of it I asked for, some of it I didn't. Either way, things have gotten better and my PE is working. So much so that I'll be the biggest guy she's ever been with in no time flat. Not that that even really matters anymore really, but it will still feel good.

My Friend - I ended up getting hormone replacement therapy at 38. That's not young for it either. Lots of guys start bombing out in their early 30's and just aren't aware of it until they are in their 40's. I recommend all guys get their test levels checked yearly.

 

[haroldo]

Sampson,
I am glad you're feeling better. I hope everything will work fine with you and your wife, and it's very good that you could talk to her and clear all the bad things.
My best wishes to you and your wife,
Haroldo.