Since I am totally opening to you, I want to tell you the story that lead me to the decision of abandoning PORN.
Some weeks ago, I added a girl who was mutual friend of someone on facebook. Now, my facebook wall at the time looked like a porn site (I am banned right now
). This girl lives far away but she seemed interested in sex. She's not an attractive girl, she's very tall and very large, probably she had also difficulties finding a partner. She seemed to be interested in me even if I was posting blowjobs, tits and facials (even penis enlargement facts) on my facebook wall (note that that was my REAL account with my face on, my real friends and some relatives, I don't know how facebook admins banned me only MONTHS after I started porning my wall).
After some weeks of picture-exchanging or webcam-flirting, she has to come around my city, so we decided to meet. I cannot have sex on my place, for many reasons. So we decided to book a motel room. This was middle-january 2011.
Athmosphere was very nice, we had Martini, we had food, we had some ganja to smoke, I also brought some lube oil (I wanted to perform some titfuck) and lots of condoms.
Then: ERECTION LEVEL 0% (ZERO PERCENT)
The days before this night I used to masturbate and have erections thinking about the fact I would soon have sex with a REAL MEAT GIRL. Also webcam-sex was fine.
But:
E-R-E-C-T-I-O-N L-E-V-E-L Z-E-R-O P-E-R-C-E-N-T
No matter what I could think/do to resurrect my little turtle.
What type of thoughts can cross your mind in a moment like that?
There is a girl very disappointed at your side.
You think about her talking with her friends (that are MUTUAL FRIENDS with YOU):
"Oh that guy is always thinking/talking about sex and he is a total failure! Ahahah!"
"What a lame, frustrated, impotent, unlucky guy, AHAHAH!"
You are on the same bed with her, staring at the ceiling, wanting to be buried six thousands feet under RIGHT NOW.
Ok, then, the only way to solve problems is react, blaming the fuckin' jesus is not going to work.
I decided I had to go down on her with my mouth and fingers (luckly she was shaved).
I didn't want to do it. Don't know why. That is not a porn thing. Blowjobs and swallowing are porn things.
But at least I had to try to save my face. I did that in the past, with decent results, nothing serious. And I also had that lube I brought for titfucking. That will help.
Let's find something useful from porn: I remembered to see some Nina Hartley cunnilingus-teaching video. There were 'unusual practices' in that video. That was not the 20-second lame clitoral stimulation from 99% of porn movies. I added those lessons to my recent knowledge of orgasm control, avoiding overstimulating, massaging all the areas, g-spotting just at the end, etc.
Since I was not in hurry (I had no dick to insert) I took my time, and massaged everything slowly and repeatedly, avoiding the common mistakes with sense. Pussy started drooling even before any finger went inside.
That fucking worked. The girl's face turned from total disappointment to smiling surprise. All my face was soon covered with oil and the white sticky vaginal stuff. It remembered me some kind of messy porn situation. I liked that. I dirty-talked. I really started to like that. I sucked a finger with my mouth while watching her (It was hard to catch her attention: she keeped closed eyes almost all the time). She loved that. I was feeling like an hero. Better than fucking. She became aware that I was having fun, that was not a thing done as a duty. She then came.
Guess what? Erection level 100%. Probably the success inflated my ego and my dick. That was a total surprise for her. She looked so happy. I went from hell to heaven. My mindset was like I had 3 orgasms, even if I had none. I felt like a hero or something. I wanted to do it again really soon, just after another joint. And I did it. She was going to come again but she stopped me as she wanted my meat inside her. As I had not erections problems anymore I did it and she came again.
Ok, I still had difficulties to reach the orgasm. It has never been easy for me to cum during real sex. I was not in my usual porn-addicted orgasm-enviromment. I had to think about porn while masturbating while she was licking dick/balls. As always. Even with other girls I had to think about porn to come. I still have to fix that, but time is a gentleman. I cannot solve all my problems in just one evening.
Guess what? She swallowed ;-)
Thank you Nina.
I thought dozens of time about that night. It was so nice even without brutal facefucking or anal destruction. The girl said me I was the most skilled pussy-eater she ever met. Ok, this can may be routine sentences. But she is texting me everyday that she can't look forward to have sex again with me.
I watched again and again Nina's skill. I wanted to know if it was just coincidence or Nina's tips work really. So I showed the video to some female friends/relatives (not that girl: never show your secrets
). They said that those things look to be very pleasurable but almost nobody knows how to eat pussy properly.
I made some little mistake during my pussy-eating actions, like twisting both fingers inside, instead of pulling them out, turn them and insert again
I feel I'm good now, but I still can improve A LOT. There are a shitload of things to know to eat pussy GOOD. I want to learn some body-massage to add to the "service" I can do.
With violent porn I enjoyed to see girls suffering, like if the pornstars where the girls made me suffer and I was taking a sexual revenge.
I hated girls. They always prefeared someone else over me. I was "the friend" guy, they wanted "the bastard fascinating" guy.
So, why make them go crazy with pleasure?
That could be a way to "enslave" girls or "tame" girls or "have power on" girls.
That's why I decided to throw away the porn-sh*t: I have to spend my time learning (PE, massages, anatomy), not watching girls swallowing buckets of cum while gagging.
Guys start to learn something useful (CUNNILINGUS) instead of watching porn. Everybody can do it. No matter if your penis is 3".
With your mouth, lube and fingers you can do things you will never be able to do with a 10" dick. You'll have to LOVE it. If you don't like the taste, use some flavoured lube (use the one compatible with condoms). Masturbate yourself with lube to know what overstimulation means (really nice sensation that unfortunately will dramatically make your way to the orgasm SO long and/or painful) and how slow, gentle, simple and lubricated CARESSES feel heavenly for girls as for you. Start learning Orgasm Control for your self. The same movements that annoys your penis, annoy the female pussy (overstimulation, earlystimulation, etc).
Maybe I'm making an exagerated mental mess for just two successfull pussy eating. But this works keeping me away from porn.
Hope can help someone else.
Thank you Nina!
