The sad, sad tale of my shitty life

[itissmall]

I grew up in an abusive household. When I was 12 my mother ran away with my big sister to save her life, and make sure than noone died. At the age of 13 I developed large man breasts. These breasts kept me from pursuing girls, and doing any activity that showed off my upper body. Due to this and my abusive past I've always been incredibly insecure. I've also always had incredible penis insecurities because I'm slightly below average, and because my penis is non-existant flaccid.

When I was 17 I discovered this place, and Penis exercises. I did it for a couple of weeks and I think I hurt my penis. Nevertheless I kept masturbating since I was so horny back then. I didn't discover I had erection problems since I'd just be masturbating.

At the age of 20, I met a girl. And in spite of never having shown her my body I still had sex with her. After some time in the relationship (about a year) I realised that my erections and the sex as a result of that wasn't very good. Her being a virgin had no experience to compare it too.

I couldn't stay hard with her on top, sometimes my penis only got close-to-before-injury-hard when I was about to orgasm. I'm now 22 and I recently realised that I never get random erections, and haven't since I was 17.

I also found out I have mentall illness and depression. And very serious anger issues because of childhood abuse. Apparently I can get my breast tissue removed, so I've lost weight recently (no use being skinny when ones body is disgusting anyway) and I have strech marks all over.

I can't stand life anymore. I've been in pain my entire life, and now..there's a possibility that I can't even have sex with attractive women even if I lose the breast curse. I'm seriously considering suicide fuck everything.

So I guess I'm contacting a doctor on monday and telling them I've injured my dick doing these exercises 5 years ago. I will keep you updated..

 

[Adecm]

Don't suicide. Things are bad but you can make them better. Contact that doctor A.S.A.P. Then talk to a urologist and a physiologist. Depending on your physical and mental injuries threes a good chance you could be healed ! Take it day by day accept that life is a roller coaster. There are high and there are lows. The point is you have to stick around to experience life completely you have to deal with the lows so you can enjoy the emotional and physical highs. Please stay with us for the whole ride of life. Let us know your progression in the coming weeks.

 

[Hound]

Well I don't know what to say without seeming like a total dick head but maybe sometime people just need to hear it how it is so I will just do this as constructively as I possibly can. RIGHT ON...? Right on lets go

First...Suicide is selfish and cowardly. There are things that are so much better than that even if you do not see them now you just need to give it time. You are a 22 yr old kid that had it rough and I am seriously sorry for that. BUT Suck it up butter cup... you wanna change it???? Well then change it. ONLY YOU control that. yes address that dick issue with the doc as that is wise.

When I was a kid I viewed myself as an unattractive person and never really had a girlfriend(31 now). My parents fount a lot, mom hit me and my brothers, dad was working and gone just to keep her happy. Mom made me deal drugs for her BF so she could have spending money. I blew that popsicle stand and joined the Army. I have been places, seen things, and done things that cover the spectrum. Happy sad glad pain fear upset with me ....dunno what to say. Life can be rough but it is never as bad as we think it is at the moment in time. I been married and divorced. 5 kids, one of which passed away. A woman who walked out on me and never gave my heart back while stomping it into the dirt every chance she had with a smile on her face just wanting "to be friends". Lost a home and all I had and went homeless and had to send my kids to live with Grandma and Grandpa till I fixed it. Had heart failure at the age of 28 due to heart break and stress. Already 60% disabled from the Military before that. I wake up every day thanking GOD that I am still here and he gives me the will to drive on and make something good of what once was bad.

I found a woman who cares for me, sure we fight but she kisses me at the end of the day. My kids love me, we have food, I am doing PE daily, My new job is awesome and I am about to purchase now my second home which will turn into my first rental home. My current place is nice as well.

It is only ever as bad as you want it to be. Keep your head up and never seek sympathy through weak words. YOU CAN DO IT AND YOU WILL DO IT. So just do it. Welcome and have a great day.

 

[Pegasus]

Now about the dick injury ,more info.

 

[DickerSchwanz]

Focus on solutions and the present - future timeline.
Focus on problems and the past will create more of the same.

I could only do quality PE after I sorted my mind.
When you are stressed your pelvic floor tenses up and eq goes down.

 

[lilbigman]

I don't mean to dismiss your feelings of having a bad life, but you know what? Many of us have had shitty things happen to us in the past. There are some out there that have had it much, much worse than you and they are still kickin. There is nothing that can't be worked thru and moved on from, but it all starts with you. You can cry and complain about how shitty things have been for you, or you can change and fix the problems 1 at a time. The stretch marks can be eliminated in time. Try rubbing coconut oil on them every day. It may take years, but I have seen first hand what coconut oil can do for stretch marks. The man boobs? Well that was probably caused by poor diet, lack of exercise and all the hormones that are in everyday foods such as milk, processed cheese and many other processed foods. Even our drinking water has high levels of estrogen in it. Don't believe me? Check it out for yourself. Get on a solid diet, with plenty of fruits, nuts, and vegetables. Exercise daily, and apply the coconut oil. As for your low self esteem and insecurity issues, get in to see a psychologist. Simply having someone to talk to and get out all your frustrations and problems can help big time. In time you need to let go of your past and look forward to a brighter future.

Now as for your penis problems. As pegasus asked "more info" Give us a little more info, there are many intelligent people here that have extensive experience with penile injuries. We may not have the answers for you, but it's a hell of a place to start. It is called PE Gym after all. It's all about the penis here, so help us help you.

 

[closed224]

Welcome it is small, and thanks for joining us. You had a rough start, and that sucks. But you are on a new path. Leave the childhood back where it belongs. It is now time to realize two things.
1- you are responsible for you. Circumstances suck, then change them. People around you suck then move. You are totally in charge of you now. Do better for yourself.
2- love yourself no matter what love yourself enough to say fuck this sh*t I am worth meeting my goals. Then set your goals and achieve them.
I am not sure why you think you can't have sex, because you have been having sex. That is a good sign that you can indeed have sex. So enjoy sex.
Great job on losing weight, add some good excersizes to your day and strengthen that leaner body. This will help increase circulation which will help the skin be more supple and help deal with these stretch marks. I have them all over my body, also a lot of scars from the beestings my dad gave me with a belt. No worries about those, most people have them. The stretch marks I mean. Don't compare your self to pictures or movies. They airbrush or use makeup to hide those blemishes.

Rock the body you got. Sculpt it the way you want. Forgive your parents. They did what they did, but now it is up to you. Read our threads on Erectile Distinction and start a routine. You are in control. Love yourself my brother. You are gonna be fine.

 

[longerlastingnoob]

A lot of advice your getting. The gym is a great place and as long as you're here you will continue to get it, that's one little thing that should reassure you that moving forward and being happy is more than possible.
If you want to talk one to one you can private message me.

 

[mannakonda]

I dont quite get the breast problem, are you just overweight?
Safe PE sessions will probably help your erections, but read a lot before you start. Taking baby-steps is better than go hard at it and "gain" an injury.

 

[Hound]

I dont quite get the breast problem, are you just overweight?
Safe PE sessions will probably help your erections, but read a lot before you start. Taking baby-steps is better than go hard at it and "gain" an injury.

Baby steps yes.....I know that I used to be super hard headed about EVERYTHING and basically excepted results back in the day immediately. Kinda why I quit doing PE and then years after I readjusted my way of thinking realized that hey, good things come to those who are patient because we learn to better respect them and how we got them.

I can guarantee if you hang out here and open your mind there is enough positive energy flowing around that you will actually start to feel the loving presence. Again I have no Idea how that happens thru the internet but that is a BIG BIG reason why I have been on here every day since I signed up. I make it a point even after work and kids and school and it being a long pain in the butt day to come check on my peeps and where they are at also updating my stuff. Stick it out brother people are always swinging in and helping with that extra little push.

You may meet a person tomorrow with the same situation that has already developed a plan on and they will catch your eye. Next you will just ask a question and before you know it you are buddies and talking every day pushing each other. Heck if you want I will volunteer to help keep you up and accountable each day right now until you find that buddy you need.

 

[Closed054]

So glad you are reaching out for help. This is the first step to being an overcomer from mental illness. I am so glad you are going to see a Dr. Please be honest about your depression and suicidal feelings. There are some wonderful meds out there for depression. Please seek a therapist as well.

Your peinis is perfect, you are able to have sex, enjoy it and your lady who trusts you. She and we do not want you to hurt yourself. There is a suicide hotline out there if you have thoughts. Be safe. Mental illness takes time to get under control. Take it from me I know this personally. I am proud of you. A book called the secret really has helped me. It teaches you how to be grateful for everything. A great read!

 

[Park Lib]

Yeah I was pretty fat as a youngster and for most of my teen years but I decided before Uni that I didn't want to be that way anymore. I worked hard and lost 2 stone (28lbs) in the 6 week holiday before the new term started. This was from someone who until that point had done no physical exercise whatsoever. My school friends didn't even recognise me haha but it made me understand that if you don't like something, you can do something to change it. I'm still working out and although I'm not where I would like to be I train hard daily and get a lot of enjoyment out of it. Just get out there and try to change things, little by little, and you'll eventually find yourself somewhere better and completely different. Just honestly don't give up. I still have plenty of stretch marks too but they have faded a bit and I just accept it as a part of me and reminds me how far I've gotten myself physically.

 

[kickinthemebs]

Well as you can see, there are a lot of great guys and gals on the forum that are more than willing to help you out with any of your issues. Hopefully we can be of some help to you on here

 

[MrsLooking4more]

Welcome to the Gym Itissmall! I am glad you recognize you need the help and as you can see there are plenty of people here wiling to help you. First seek the professional help and then start living. We have all had something or other happen in our lives that has changed us. The problem is how do we deal with the cards dealt.

Leave the past in the past or it will still have power over you and you will still be a victim to it. Decide enough is enough and move on. Is not easy but neither is carrying the baggage.

Start a routine here and a physical at home you might even help your body generate the chemicals it needs to keep you grounded. God luck and happy tuggin'

 

[dmizzle]

Life sucks sometimes, get off your ass and fix it. Go to the gym, eat right, and PE. Give it two years and you'll be fit, strong, and have big dick. Then you can rule the world. Let me tell you about my life.

I grew up with a single mother, very insecure. Allowed myself to be in abusive relationships with women. At 17 I was addicted to heroin. By 18 I was in jail. 19-20, still using herion, being arrested over and over with Felonies. I couldn't get a job, couldn't get an apartment, my life sucked and I did just want to die. But, I found the right medication, and I woke up. I realized had control of my life. I might never be perfect, I might not have perfect body, or be a millionaire, or have big dick, or whatever. I took control of my life. I am now a very very successful self taught computer engineer, I own my house, new car, and my girl, if you saw her, she's a supermodel. You're still just a kid. Pick yourself up, dedicate yourself to making a change and it will happen. You wanna give up like a pussy, that's on you. There is so much life to live, you need to get out and live it. That's it.

 

[THOTbreaker]

Guess what dickface, life sucks sometimes, get off your ass and fix it.

Have some tact man. :bad:


Welcome to the Gym itissmall.

 

[closed224]

Could a been a good post. Just drop the name calling and I would a repped you.

 

[burtybasset]

Life sucks sometimes, get off your ass and fix it. Go to the gym, eat right, and PE. Give it two years and you'll be fit, strong, and have big dick. Then you can rule the world. Let me tell you about my life.

I grew up with a single mother, very insecure. Allowed myself to be in abusive relationships with women. At 17 I was addicted to heroin. By 18 I was in jail. 19-20, still using herion, being arrested over and over with Felonies. I couldn't get a job, couldn't get an apartment, my life sucked and I did just want to die. But, I found the right medication, and I woke up. I realized had control of my life. I might never be perfect, I might not have perfect body, or be a millionaire, or have big dick, or whatever. I took control of my life. I am now a very very successful self taught computer engineer, I own my house, new car, and my girl, if you saw her, she's a supermodel. You're still just a kid. Pick yourself up, dedicate yourself to making a change and it will happen. You wanna give up like a pussy, that's on you. There is so much life to live, you need to get out and live it. That's it.

Lets leave the name calling out of this shall we, if you're going to encourage the lad do it, but no need to insult him.

 

[burtybasset]

Welcome to the gym itissmall!

I think our friend above was just trying to motivate you with a bit of tough love and in some ways I believe you do have to be a little hard on yourself, so you don't fall into self hatred (I've been there) and this negative thought cycle (there too).

There are many people here who will do there best to help you, so stick around a while and have a giggle with us, we are grumpy, happy, caring, funny and everything in between on different days. Stick around long enough and you will see we are just like you.

Come join in here whenever you are ready.

Stay safe brother!

 

[kelthuzad1986]

Since depression was mentioned I'm just gonna leave this here.

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