The AP90 (Anti-Porn)

[Klaxton]

I'm about to get ready for work then afterwards I'll be going to bed pretty much so no chance to relapse , so I call that a successful day 2 !

I admit I've been a lot calmer today so I haven't been at risk , however even with less enthusiasm I'm still pretty hyped for making some gains

Sorry for daily updates I'll stop soon it's just the first week or so is pretty difficult and it's nice to vent off on here , hope you all are going strong !

 

[CottonEyeBob]

Day 3. Day 3 no MO.

 

[oldacct]

Keep going you three. You all keep returning to the thread which shows you have a desire to do this. We're here for your support!

MRPOPO - have you considered downloading a porn blocker? And when it asks for a password, either get someone you trust to put one in, or just mash the keyboard (like hdf;fhadsiulfhad) so you could never guess it in a million years!

Cotton - whenever I relapse on the MO, the first few days are always the worst. Don't give up the progress you make with each passing day before you build up another long streak man

Koh - sounds like she does like you, if she said she wasn't expecting it to move "THAT fast". Making your intentions known to her too early is WAY better than making your intentions known to her too late... the latter is where guys enter the friend zone! Stand by what you did, don't overthink things with her, and just remember that even though you're crushing on her, you're so early on in your "relationship" with her (can't think of another word!) that if you moved on to another girl - through choice or otherwise - you're not throwing away much with this one, even though you do have strong feelings for her right now. I guess my most important advice would be: try to work things out with her, but don't go modifying your behaviour to seek her approval. She'll respect that even less than you making a move too early! Oh and you've done the right thing with putting your studies first. A crush lasts nowhere near as long as good qualifications! Good luck with her man


Wishful - it makes me happy to hear you're positive about things. Keep it up

Klaxton - I'm 100+ days in and I still post daily! Don't worry about it!

 

[oldacct]

114 days no porn in the bag, day 115 today

day 1 no MO done! Day 2 today!

 

[MRPOPO]

day 1 no porn done, gingernuts yeah I tried a porn blocker app once but for some reason it wouldn't block the porn?
if you have any extensions for google chrome in mind Id appreciate that man!

 

[Klaxton]

Day 3 - Today has been difficult , literally my body is craving some form of release at this point , and considering I'm single as hell it know's it needs something else .. So I may be snooping on dating sites and maybe considering Tinder ... (For the record I do actually want a relationship but my cravings are kind of forcing me to finally maybe do something about it )

(And when I say snoop I don't mean preying on women I mean I'm terrified of people I know knowing that I'm doing this , and I'm also seeing who's on there and if there is anyone of dating material )

I'm holding at the moment , god help me ..

 

[oldacct]

Klaxton - why are you terrified of what people may think? It's none of their business what you do. And it's also none of your business what they think of you!

It's a good thing you're looking to spend time with real women don't frown on your own behaviour of using dating sites/apps, there's nothing wrong with it, nobody in their right mind would see it as predatory behaviour - get on them and get meeting some girls! I did it back last year when I first decided to do something about my porn abuse, and the girls I met through it helped me so much.

I didn't sleep with any - just spent time with them, cuddled, watched movies, fooled around with a couple - but it all helped my brain rewire to real girls, and get my confidence up (which helps when you're single because you feel less insecure if you "know" you can attract women, and therefore feel less need to "medicate" that insecurity with porn). Nothing wrong with it, go forth and have fun

 

[BigO]

I agree Klaxton. There's absolutely nothing to be terrified, embarrassed, or ashamed about.

Relationships are found through dating. And dating is done by talking and interacting Which is what these sites enable. Communication.

Go for it! If all you do is talk, then that's positive experience gained.

Don't think of it like snooping. Think of it as a convenient, safe way to make a step in the right direction. And good for you for doing it! :thumb:

 

[BigO]

day 1 no porn done, gingernuts yeah I tried a porn blocker app once but for some reason it wouldn't block the porn?
if you have any extensions for google chrome in mind Id appreciate that man!

Hey MrPopo, I've heard K9 web blocker referred to often. Might be worth taking a look at.

 

[Koh]

Day 18 of 21 porn free. I had sex with a pretty hot girl yesterday but my EQ was weak as hell and I didn't last too long. I'd attribute it to lack of sleep since I had had a long day and just finished a 4 hour class, I wasn't too hydrated, and I've been pretty bummed about this other girl that's been on my mind... I'm still trying to patch things up with her though. I'm assuming this weekend should be sex filled and relaxing after I finish my work that is.

 

[oldacct]

115 days no porn done, day 116 today

Day 0 MO. Pushed myself too hard whilst edging after waking up with morning wood. However I've not been taking any horny goat weed or gingko biloba now since my last O 3 days ago, and yet I've had morning wood each morning, and don't feel as drained right now as I used to after PMOing. So I'm not so much concerned about the physiological effect of these last couple of MOs, I'm more just disappointed that I'm not building up a streak haha. Starting again today, come on!

 

[oldacct]

I've just looked back through my habit tracker on my phone... so far in 2015 I've MO'd 12 times in 106 days. Compare that to last year when I MO'd once, twice, or three times a day every day and I get a better picture of the change and progress I've made.

...however there's still room for improvement

 

[Flower_power]

Hey gingernuts, you are an idol in this thread! Great motivation! So we do have that pact right ? Because now I have great responsibility, since I do not want you to jump off a tall building !!!

I use all hte advice that you people gave me. Whenever the urge come sup I remind myself of the negative consequences ginving in would have. Plus I look forward to greater EQ, mental power, a more focused mind, etc.

I am still porn free.

 

[CottonEyeBob]

Thanks for the support everyone!

Day 4. Day 4 no MO.

 

[closed224]

Day 78

 

[Koh]

Day 19 of 21 porn free. Not really feeling the urge to look these days. I just want to focus on my routine and get a strong EQ and low refractory period going on. I exercise a decent amount, so I think I just need to remain constant with my cardio and stretching.

 

[oldacct]

Hey gingernuts, you are an idol in this thread! Great motivation!

Thanks man, anything I can do

Good to see the thread filling up with a few regulars too, for a while back there I could post 2 daily updates in a row but now I can't, too many other people are posting their own updates! It's nice to have company

I haven't noticed myself being cranky or "weak" (emotionally or physically) today after I MO'd. Went to the gym pretty much straight after and although I didn't hit any PRs I still had a good workout. Then I had a tough day at work and it hardly affected me. I really like the direction my life has taken recently, and how I feel day-to-day emotionally. I feel like I'm beginning to reap the benefits of no porn and (much less) MO that I've been sewing over the past 4 months.

I'm 26 now, I got stuck in the PMO trap probably when I was about 17 or 18, and I don't have a lot of memories of the past 8 or 9 years honestly. It's all a bit fuzzy. Recently though I've realised that I haven't felt this "settled" emotionally since I was around 16/17. I've got a lot more time for my friends and family now. I have a drive that I haven't had for a long time, to just do things - whether it's work, play, whatever. I get excited around girls again, whereas I was just numb round them before. I've started listening to music that I stopped listening to when I was around 17 years old... it's like I'm picking up where I left off before I started abusing porn. I do feel like a kid again lol. I may have lost 8 or 9 years, sure, but we can only look forward. I have a lot of time to make up with friends and more importantly with myself

Keep at it everyone, the change will come for you all. The world doesn't get fluffier, everything doesn't become rose-tinted all of a sudden or anything, but there is a definite change that's happening for me and I hope it happens for you all. If I could communicate the difference between how I used to feel and how I feel now I would do; but I can't fully - you'll all have to get there yourselves to find out

 

[Klaxton]

Today I start day 5

This is getting difficult , I admit I no longer crave porn although it's pushed me to trying to get the real thing so that could be a disaster ...

 

[oldacct]

Today I start day 5

This is getting difficult , I admit I no longer crave porn although it's pushed me to trying to get the real thing so that could be a disaster ...

Or it could be the start of great things! It could be the start of getting what you want in your sex life! Be positive man

 

[oldacct]

116 days no porn in the bag! Day 117 today.

Day 0 no MO over and done with, working on day 1 today, let's do this!