Addiction to porn and masturbation has destroyed my sexual strength and i must fix it

[Minuteman]

Still doing 0.5.
Last Friday after edging for about four days,on fifth day, i had to finally ejaculate because i was feeling it too much, you know , getting some relief. Afterwards i had this bad feeling i used to have back in the days when i used to masturbate, the feeling of some guilt. I just felt like, am i back to masturbation again? i find it a little disturbing, if only one could EDGE without ejaculating because the ejaculation part of it brings back those bad memories i don't wanna think of again. What has been your experiences, anything same as mine?

I make my point to enjoy ejaculation (itself and its immediate aftermath) as much as I can regardless of how fast or slow it comes, it took me a while but learned how to embrace the ejaculation and enjoy its sensation. It is very important that you learn how to do this yourself if you want to progress.

I made conscious efforts, at some point even fake ones if needed be, to enjoy ejaculation itself regardless of how long or short the session was, there where some points where this was hard, but giving how a mix of chemicals allowing you to feel rather relaxed and pleasured are always involved in ejaculation process it is not that hard once you set your mind to it. In the end you really don't have much to lose when enjoying ejaculation, while by depriving yourself of some reward trough pleasure you are making your next sessions even worse in some way, since you will be burdened by it.

Before, after a session (be it edging or mastubation) when I finish I would just get up, get clothed and continue about my day, but now I just lie down for at least 5 minutes (almost always naked) and just relax. From the psychological standpoint this has done me wonders, and I really can't understand how I didn't figure out this rather simple thing way before.

The thing that also made me appreciate ejaculation itself even more where the 3rd days of the 3day routine where the pent up arousal and sensations will just explode making it really easy for me to view ejaculation as something pleasurable.

What I also noticed during my journey, and still am, is that overwhelming pleasure and enjoyment will almost always help you more in attaining your goal than the rigid, cold, emotionless, bolted up, too much focused effort. Of course the mix of both and the balance between the is the best but I tend to chose err on the side of the pleasure more. In the end you are doing all this in order to enjoy it more, might as well enjoy it.

 

[OJay]

Minuteman, alike the balance that you have so far stroke. Perhaps that is what i should set. I guess i have had a problem with setting it, some times may be i get thinking of what 'bad' masturbation has done to me to the extent i don't recognise the pleasure, like, this is what caused my PE and here i am doing it again and instead i focus so much on what i want to achieve.

 

[Minuteman]

Minuteman, alike the balance that you have so far stroke. Perhaps that is what i should set. I guess i have had a problem with setting it, some times may be i get thinking of what 'bad' masturbation has done to me to the extent i don't recognise the pleasure, like, this is what caused my PE and here i am doing it again and instead i focus so much on what i want to achieve.

The fact that you are aware of that is a progress in itself, a lot of things will change overall as you get to become more and more aware and experienced, and you will also have a fair share of the bad days, that can't be avoided, but in time those will be reduced to a few days a month, then year etc.

 

[OJay]

Hey guys, its been a while. Its nice checking in here to say hello and a bit of how am fairing on. Am still doing my routines though i must admit not as consistent as it should be but at least putting effort. I recently had sex with a lady and i realised bit of improvement . Of course i tried positions that i feel gives me some control and i could go for 3 to 4 minutes as i took deep breath. Few weeks ago i couldn't last a minute, even with few thrusts i was already ejaculating but now i see some difference, i must say. I also realise that the biggest enemy that cause PE is Performance Anxiety....lack of confidence......the fear of being disappointed. Secondly, if one has a partner who is too 'demanding' then that complicates matter too, because that erodes ones confidence. With the little improvement i have seen, i feel my confidence is boosted and i hope for the best as i continue my exercises. Keep on working on this guys and i wish everyone of us with this PE issue well.