*** Will my dick ever get fixed? ***

[boy of misery]

Do you guys remember me? It's been almost 2 years now since I jelqed my dick wrong. It was 2011 to be exact. I posted some(?) threads about it here about 1 and a half year ago.

So, it's either because of I didn't warm up once or because of the accumulation of too harsh jelqing sessions. It has never been the same since then. Dick feels rubbery, and it gets worse from time to time. Semi flaccid gets firm at times. It's like when it's 20% erect, it feels like it's 80% erect. And my maximum boner has shrunk by at least 1 inch. It used to be 5.5-6 inch when I was 15. Now 5 years later, it's like 4 inch. It doesn't have anything to do with erection quality, because my 4 inch boner feels like it's maximum. It's like I've destroyed some 'path' of the dick due to jelqing, and the 4 inch becomes to feel like it's maximum. But, it still feels weird like something is 'lost' from my dick. I am certain that the area below my glans feels and looks very weird. It looks white and when I touch it it feels like a scar you get on knee some days/weeks after you fall from a bike. FUCK. It feels like I've lost some connections in my dick. Worst part of it is that now my dick looks like those of the dudes in Japanese porns.

Once I encountered a cute hot lady in a bus. We had to stand and you know, place got crowded and she and I accidentally got our parts touched each other. You guys would have a 110% boner if you were me but I didn't get any. My dick felt insensitive like it had a huge armor covering it. Why do I use this story? Because this type of unexpected and surprising sexual experience would get any normal man with a working tool in the world the absolute boner, but I didn't get it.

And you haven't even heard about my dick shrinking when I was younger.. You would say it's impossible but my dick did really shrink when I was having an eating disorder. I got really thin at the BMI of 15. Well, dick is meat and if you starve yourself, your body will consume it's own meat, right? Imagine a body with 15 BMI, dude. Imagine.. There's no meat left but the dick. But actually I didn't really know if the shrinkage came from lack of sleep, excessive masturbation/ejaculation (forced myself to ejaculate when there's no power left), bad blood flow, from the eating disorder itself, or the combination of all. But I wasn't delusional and it's not about me measuring my dick wrong. I saw it by my own eyes my dick looked and felt like it had only skin left, and my balls went flat and it felt like it's empty. It happened when I played at an internet cafe for 2-3 days without sleeping. What I did were playing online games, drinking very little, not eating, and not sleeping. After that it got a little better but I got the idea that at one point my body had some percents of my dick consumed already for survival reasons or something.

Cliffs:
-masturbated 3-5 a day, ejaculating 5++ times each session
-depressed in life, played video games in internet cafe for relief, dropped out from school
-got eating disorder while gaming, got really thin around 15 BMI
-didn't care about life, noticed dick/balls had shrunk but didn't care
-hardly did any sports
-came back to life, wanted to fix things
-aware and insecure about dick situation
-PEGYM

Man.. I'm 21 and I've never even got laid. But, would you if you were me? What would you do then?

 

[Dangler]

I would think that if you looked over what you posted, made a substitute listing with POSITIVE things to replace the negative things, you would have a plan.
Much of self destructive behavior, makes it all worse.

Turn your life around, make a commitment to yourself. Look into doing a 'gentle' version of the JP90. Eat right, exercise, make yourself start getting your act together.

Until you start, you will stay stuck.
good luck.

 

[MrsLooking4more]

Ditto what Dangler said and may I also suggest you see a urologist to make sure you did not do any internal damage to your unit when you were overtly eager in your practice. Have you tried doing PE again since you injured yourself?

 

[EraStyle]

Ditto what Dangler said and may I also suggest you see a urologist to make sure you did not do any internal damage to your unit when you were overtly eager in your practice. Have you tried doing PE again since you injured yourself?

This. Go get that sh*t checked. If it turns out okay, you can start some light PE like Dangler said...

Start lifting. It's an easy sport which gives results fast and helps you improve your lifestyle and food habits, etc.

You seem aware btw

 

[Xavier II]

Since you've asked "what would you do then?"

Well, what I suggest you is to start all over again from the beginning. Depression can ruin your entire persona, it turns you inside out.
now, you gotta ask your self THIS question..
"Do I deserve to be depressed like this for the rest of my entire life?"

NO!! Life is something beautiful. something that we gotta LEARN to enjoy and Live.
whatever has hurt you, let it go. just let go. I know it's easier said than done, but it's the best thing you should do. I've been through that, we all have.
Now, you gotta learn to step up, and move on. when there's a tragic ending, there's a new better chapter for you in life.

put that depression aside, think of what you value the Most in life.. your goals, plans. etc. put your self ahead of anything else AND anyone else.
you are number 1 in your life.


depression can affect several things in a man. includes self-steem, erections, testosterone level(which is what we need) self confidence.
you gotta get these back.

you must become active with your life style. begin jogging, have a clean nutrition regimen.
Eat on foods that will help you to boost your testosterone levels (chicken, fish, healthy fats avocados, tree nuts, fruit. vegetables, rice, omega 3s, fish oil. multivitamins)

drink plenty of water daily, flush that depression away. wake up every morning feeling good about your self. look your self in the mirror and ask your self
"do i choose to be depressed?, do i want to be depressed?"
say to your self "NO, I want to improve, i choose to improve"

your dick will recover once you get back in track, start all over again.. do your penis exercises peacefully, silently with strict concentration.
warm up properly prior exercises. don't masturbate so much, cut down on it. focus on gains. you want to keep your dick strong, and not exhausted.

be positive, smile when you cross paths with a woman. they feel a man's confidence.
take one step at a time, each step you take, is one less to where you want to be.

listen to positive peaceful music, find your self walking beyond that mountain that has block your path.

 

[draggin]

You damaged something. You need to go get checked out. Make sure there are not "clots" or something that is prevent blood flow. Serious stuff.

After that, you need to start a gentle PE program. Mostly jelqs. "V" jelqs are my favorite. Light jelqs help push the healing blood through the penis. In time jelqs will help restore your function. It sure has for me, anyway. Once your EQ begins to improve you will get your full size back. Don't worry about that.

The good news is you are young, postitive, and strong. Also, time heals everything. In the meantime, quitting porn will help your penis more than you know. If you clean your brain of porn, that will help tremendously "pop it up" when a girl starts giving you affection. Also, try not to overly jerk off. Instead practice getting hard with minimum stim. It's about penis therapy at this point, it's not about cumming. If you are not getting hard, just stop and again try later. The best times are when you are well rested or after a sleep or nap. That is when my dick functions at it's best.

Good luck buddy. Let us know how you are doing.

 

[BoaConstrictor]

Hey "boy of misery"
I can imagine you are probably really going through it. Trust and believe, you aren't the only one. Sadly since these threads don't really give us a good history and visual, it is hard to lend assistance.

About the staying up for days thing..I can relate. I used to party a lot and be up for days drinking and smoking, hardly eating, out and about...just trying to have a good time in my teenage years (mid twenties now) and I felt that whenever I was up more than a day, I would feel shrinkage.. I don't think i'd say it was permanent but did last a while. But after years I think I am still my natural size as always (somedays more or less). It seems like it is not that you are losing mass or that the penis is getting sucked into your body, but that it's simply getting each and every drop of fluid drained out, maybe blood being used for more important things at the time (like assisting with heart rate or something, due to lack of sleep, etc.)
I've actually probably seen my penis at it's smallest, about 1 inch flaccid, and largest, 6 or 7 inches erect, not involving any Pe or anything. So I believe your body will take some of the penis in the body and blood to other parts.

I noticed you had posts last year or something.. Since the ones in March I think 2012, has anything changed with your issue? My guess is you really did injure yourself, probably going too hard too fast. I do believe there is hope for you...It sounds like you didn't completely ruin your tool, but maybe you have more like a downgraded version of it.

I would say, try natural ways to try to help kick your body into gear. What I mean is, try:

Exercise (get the blood flowing, heart rate, overall health boost)
Diet (eat plenty of fruits and vegetables and lots of water)
Stress relief (exercise, sports, meditation, etc..)
Vitamins (multi vitamins or plenty healthy foods)

Last, I think this will be most important,
Herbs or herbal supplements;
Ginkgo, Horny goat weed, l-arginine, maca, etc..
The reason I say these because not only good for overall health but these are very good for erection quality. You may be able to get better erections from these. Also by having more blood flow to your penis, it may be able to deliver nutrients more effectively for healing.

I would say give ginkgo a try definitely if you aren't already.

Also, do you masturbate (how often if so?) ?

And do you feel pain, or is it more like just lost of sensitivity, so more like nothing at all?

 

[BoaConstrictor]

Also yes lay off the porn...

 

[jonyoung]

Boy of misery you and I have similar problems, I'm going to an uro on the 3rd to check out torn fascia, adult acquired buried penis, and pelvic floor issues and would a Doppler ultrasound rule out nerve damage?

 

[NCGUY1972]

Stay away from porn
Cut the maturbation out almost entirely if possible
Do you have a job? If not get one
Get out and excercise
talk to someone about the depression & anxiety a professional