Hey. I need some advice... I don't know what to think about, and what should I do.
I'm 23 years old. I've been in the realationship with my lady for about 3 years. She's my first. We live together and I'm trying to do that everything is allright. I'm working and stuyding and trying to make our life normal.
I felt that something was wrong about 2 years ago, like she lost real interest in my person, there was no more emotion in her. Sex happened only if I began, she stopped to touch me... It was problem for me so we talked - but she sweared everything was allright. Few months later my person just irritated her, she got frustrated, everyting I've done was wrong. We had a break for month.
We get back and we lived with each other. For few months everything was fine. But ... we fallen apart. I explained to myself there can not be fire all the time, like first time...
Now - we have sex once a month. I get very frustrated. When I can't stand it and I touch her I hear:
-I don't have a mood, -Stop it, -Like a child, -All the time, only one, -Can you be neutral?, -Why don't you just hug...?
And finally when we get close she doesn't even touch me (exception is my dick) and when I'm in I hear -"just finish...", when I'm trying to kiss her she turns away from. I feel like a rapist. When we talk about it's always my fault. After the talk I feel guilty. It's sick.
I can't get over it. Sometimes I doesn't feel like a man anymore... I feel so unwanted. The saddest thing is that other women pay attention to me, sometimes smiles to me at the street etc...
It's worth to add that when we first met I had really nice body. I loved sport and I trained about 8 times a week. It was real passion. But it was a school time, I had no other problems, so much time... When I changed my priorities - serious studying and full time working and getting better life I hadn't that much energy for training like crazy.. but I still do - but there's no more very low fat and abs..
I'm writing this because when I asked her why she even can't touch me she answered my body is not like "that" when we met.. and she tooked something better.. It was really sad for me because I lost my shape when I broke my leg + I had important exams + problems at work. Because I wanted to ensure our living together. But it's getting better - I increase my physical shape slowly but steadily. I never lost my time on couch etc. Never.
She always sees athletic men on the street... But she doesn't see me anymore. I always tryed to make her happy at bed and do my best to get her satisfied...
What sould I do? Should I left her "only" because the sex? The freqency of such sex makes me like horny animal, I can't took my eyes off women at the streets, I have uncontrolled erections like 15... And I'm destroying this relationship. I can't be friend of her....
I'm 23 years old. I've been in the realationship with my lady for about 3 years. She's my first. We live together and I'm trying to do that everything is allright. I'm working and stuyding and trying to make our life normal.
I felt that something was wrong about 2 years ago, like she lost real interest in my person, there was no more emotion in her. Sex happened only if I began, she stopped to touch me... It was problem for me so we talked - but she sweared everything was allright. Few months later my person just irritated her, she got frustrated, everyting I've done was wrong. We had a break for month.
We get back and we lived with each other. For few months everything was fine. But ... we fallen apart. I explained to myself there can not be fire all the time, like first time...
Now - we have sex once a month. I get very frustrated. When I can't stand it and I touch her I hear:
-I don't have a mood, -Stop it, -Like a child, -All the time, only one, -Can you be neutral?, -Why don't you just hug...?
And finally when we get close she doesn't even touch me (exception is my dick) and when I'm in I hear -"just finish...", when I'm trying to kiss her she turns away from. I feel like a rapist. When we talk about it's always my fault. After the talk I feel guilty. It's sick.
I can't get over it. Sometimes I doesn't feel like a man anymore... I feel so unwanted. The saddest thing is that other women pay attention to me, sometimes smiles to me at the street etc...
It's worth to add that when we first met I had really nice body. I loved sport and I trained about 8 times a week. It was real passion. But it was a school time, I had no other problems, so much time... When I changed my priorities - serious studying and full time working and getting better life I hadn't that much energy for training like crazy.. but I still do - but there's no more very low fat and abs..
I'm writing this because when I asked her why she even can't touch me she answered my body is not like "that" when we met.. and she tooked something better.. It was really sad for me because I lost my shape when I broke my leg + I had important exams + problems at work. Because I wanted to ensure our living together. But it's getting better - I increase my physical shape slowly but steadily. I never lost my time on couch etc. Never.
She always sees athletic men on the street... But she doesn't see me anymore. I always tryed to make her happy at bed and do my best to get her satisfied...
What sould I do? Should I left her "only" because the sex? The freqency of such sex makes me like horny animal, I can't took my eyes off women at the streets, I have uncontrolled erections like 15... And I'm destroying this relationship. I can't be friend of her....
