I'm pretty sure this is an old post, and probably nobody is gonna see this, but anyway this is how I feel, and there's not much I can say that I am thankful for......Lately it has been pure hell... Saw some pretty disturbing sh*t right when Covid hit...When I say hell, I'm not talking figure of speech....I'm talking about hell with a capital H....some of my family members have changed....in a negative way.....I do not like how some of them have become.....I feel it in my gut that I have made a terrible mistake, but sadly, there's nothing I can do about it. It's done, it is in the past. I regret it, I regret making this "poor" decision.... I feel really bad about it, and what's worse, this is only the beginning...I'm really scared of what's to come... I should talk to my counselor about it, but what's the point.... he will not understand... so why am I going to these appointments, it's a waste of time and money... the only thing I can think of being thankful for is, being alive.....I guess that counts for something