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Well, sitting here hating every passing moment of my dreadful f'd up life. Throughout my life everything has gone wrong...I feel like crying but the hate i feel inside stops me. I'm dead inside just need to die on the outside now.I have never had a girlfriend nor had sex, I am 22 years old (eyes just teared up writing that).I was diagnose with phimosis when i was 16 so i had a circumcision done. The size of my penis is just another one of my curses...it's pathetic.. it looks like a ten year olds... under two inches flacid and thin.... When I get an erection it has a bad arch to the left..... like.. at 9 ocklock. I dont know how i got stuck with this, my brother has a huge one, he always brags about it- and I often see it bulging when he wears sweatpants.He says he is just over 9 inches and i believe him... girls say he is too big to handle...I swear it's like something wants me dead... I cannot find a way out. I have alot of pride, i am a big man with a childs unit. This embaressing secret has kept me back from my entire life... I havent told anyone ... I cant speak to anyone... I strongly doubt i will be able to fix myself.I spend all day worrying and focusing on the size of my penis,,, its like there is no way out. My entire life has been goin downhill from drug addictions to u name it.Honestly the only thing keeping me alive is my family and the little bit of hope in this site . Seams like I only wake up to endure my day then go to sleep .... everyday.... all essence of joy and happiness are gone. There is a hell and Im in it.