Now i lost my virginity about a week ago, and i did something that leaves in doubt and makes me feel soo stupid...i will begin telling my story from a thursday night until now. on thursday night i was masturbating after a long time of not doing so. after i ejaculated, i went to sleep. on friday it was all cool i urinated about 2 times that day, maybe 3 and i didnt masturbate. on saturday evening my gf and i were doing our thing and i was very hard...i told her i really wanted to have sex with her, and she told me after she finished school we could, which is in like 4 years...and i told her i couldnt wait that long, but i would if i had to. This has happened multiple times, but shell always just smile and tell me the same thing...at first it was after marriage, then she narrowed it to after school, but it would always be comical for we joked around and i guess she felt happy that she could turn me on. i knew she really wanted to try having sex with me but hse always brought up consequences. keep in mind that i really love her and i promised myself to have sex with the person i was going to spend the rest of my life with. well this particular saturday night our hormones took over. and we were both nervous...i told her id use a condom and it was good. i have learned the key to sex is to relax and thats what i did. my penis was slowly going flaccid for i was trying to relax and i was nervous as well. i felt liquid ooze out of my shaft, and it seemed to me it was precum. it was spread around my boxers. when i got up i went into my room got a condom *Durex: her pleasure* and i put it in my pocket and went to the bathroom to inspect this precum. it was a bit more than average in my case for it was spread around one side of my boxers. i grabbed toilet paper and cleaned the liquid of my glans and shaft. when i went back into the room where i lost my virginity...i took out the condom and put it on, but somehow my hand touched my boxers and i got some of the precum on it, which touched the tip of the condom. i rubbed the condom on a dry part of my underwear and i told myself "its just precum, well more than usual but its precum...you urinated a few times yesterday and today, if thered be any sperm left from thursday it would be a miracle. so i brushed the tip of the condom quickly, i was soo nervous and desperate, so i put my penis inside of her and thats that. well we had fun...it hurt her at first but she felt better as we went. sunday was chiil, but on monday she was behaving weirdly...and on tuesday she asked if she could be pregnant. so i researched and researched and i really need some answers...i have a few questions for all men reading this....can you feel a sensation when your precum dribbles in your shaft (not like an ejaculation sensation, but a mini one, like not as strong)? what color is your precum? really light grayish clear or just clear? how much of it comes out in a good precum day? im just nervous thinking i possibly ejaculated instead of precumming...i mean i didnt cum when i had sex...i did so after she left and it came out in good quantity...ughhhh im sooo confused. it was right after her period when we did it and we are waiting for her period to come which is longer since its 28 days average...dammit its a long time for me time just goes by so slowly now that i think of how foolish and careless i was to trust my self i was too nervous. please answer my questions to get some weight off my back. answer honestly.