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  • NumberSix
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    My mood, libido and EQ have all been in a mild slump the last few days. It happens... just gotta stick to my routines (PE and otherwise) and keep moving ahead. Next week, the gym I used to go to is finally going to reopen. It's a city-run facility so they took their sweet time. I'm pretty eager to stop working out at home all the time and get back in there.

    This might sound strange but I realized recently that I need to ejaculate more often. I have time in the morning for PE but I don't often have much extra time for balooning or edging, plus I often feel depleted when I finish so I tend to avoid it. However, I've gone weeks without it and found that I become anxious and frustrated. I'm in the middle of yet another dry spell with my wife, so it's up to me. I think once a week, maybe twice, is ideal. My goal is to achieve a balance between depletion and frustration.

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  • NumberSix
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    Back at it today after two days of full rest. As expected, the days off resulted in a tighter tunica as evidenced by a slight loss of size but increase in EQ. Some mild spotting after the morning routine, which I take to be a sign of slight de-conditioning. I think that's actually a positive sign. I take it mean that my penis had enough time to recover and rebuild.

    I'm continuing to incorporate bundled stretches. I have to go much lighter with these as compared to normal stretching. Today I kept it very light but extended the stretching to 10 minutes. Also extended the squeezes and clamping to 6 minutes per set.

    I've been able to apply the 2% hydroquinone stuff daily since I started again a few days back. As long as I do it just once a day, there's no irritation. And this stuff works. It's kinda crazy. Slowly but steadily, I'm seeing darker skin just exfoliate off. Good stuff.

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  • NumberSix
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    EQ continues to be great. Part of that might be the reduced Bathmate use. I still think it serves a purpose, but I'm cutting back. No Bathmate on rest days and just a 10 minute session for "on" days.

    More small adjustments: I've been trying out bundled stretches. It's a technique designed to target the tunica, which is exactly what I want. Really, it's just a way to amend the stretches I'm already doing (directional, crank, a-stretch), so I just give it a twist and do what I would normally do (a little more carefully). I also extend my squeezes and clamping by an extra minute sometimes. Just going by what feels right.

    Relationship Stuff

    I've avoided talking about my marriage and sex life here because it's kind of a can of worms and I'm not sure how much is relevant to PE. That said, it's certainly factored into my PE journey in several ways; why I do PE, the benefits, other considerations. Those purely interested in techniques and gains may wish to skip all this.

    Some background. I'm in my late 30's, married, no kids. I've been with my wife a dozen years, married for half that time. For the first 2-3 years, sex was pretty frequent, usually 2-3 times a week if memory serves. Everything seemed fine.

    It's hard to remember how it happened, but at some point it dropped off. There was a lot going on between school, work, and buying a house. I figured it was a normal, temporary response to a stressful time in our lives. Instead, what followed was roughly a year of almost no sex. I initiated frequently and was rejected repeatedly. We had sex maybe 4-6 times that year, much of it bad, get-it-over-with sex that felt worse than rejection.

    That period left some deep cuts but eventually I got over my self-pity and went into problem solving mode. I figured I had failed her in some way and I was determined to fix it. I read every book I could find about sex, relationships and how to make myself better or more attractive.

    Things improved, our relationship grew stronger in some ways, and our sex life thawed a bit. Frequency mostly varied from once a week to once every two months. It fluctuated a lot; occasionally more than once a week, sometimes even less than once every two months. It was up to me to initiate and I'd still get rejected most of the time, but occasionally we'd have fantastic, intimate sex. I could never understand why we'd have a night of great sex but then a she'd lose interest for a month.

    Back then, it was hard to predict if she'd be happy, sad or angry at any given time, just as it was impossible to know if she'd be receptive to sex. Her communication skills were not great, often defaulting to withdrawal or silence. Talking directly about sex never went well, no matter how I tried to approach the subject. It was impossible to figure out what was going on with her. Even when things were going well, sex remained infrequent. I often got the impression that she'd be happier if sex just wasn't a thing.

    I should note that I was by no means the perfect partner. I was succeeding at work but I hated my job and needed to get out. My life felt stagnant. I was depressed and it showed. Plus the lack of sex was driving me crazy. I tried to channel that energy into self improvement but felt resentful and frustrated inside. I was desperate for sex and that made me pushy or needy at times, which undoubtedly didn't help.

    But I don't want to just paint a bleak picture here. Aside from my job and our sex life, we were building a pretty great life together. We got married, enjoyed lots of good times together, and life went on.

    Finally, something changed and she began a long process of self-reflection and personal development. It started with her telling me she was interested in women, which wasn't a total surprise. We went to therapy and after establishing some boundaries, she went on a few dates and found herself a girlfriend. That whole thing has (surprisingly) been a kind of non-factor in our relationship. They see each other maybe once a week, often less. I'm not sure if sex is a big part of their relationship either. Soon after that, I quit my job, started a business and now have a vastly more positive outlook on life. I'm in better mental and physical shape.

    Therapy proved useful so we continued for a few years. She started to unpack some serious early childhood emotional trauma, most of which was previously unknown to me. It wasn't sexual trauma, but it had a lot to do with autonomy, control over her body, etc. I'm not going to sugar coat it... over the last few years, she's continued to explore this stuff and it's been a roller coaster. I don't know what to expect from her sometimes. I don't think she knows what to expect from herself either. Still, we've held it all together and helped each other grow.

    A little over two years ago, it started to sink in that there's nothing wrong with me. My wife just doesn't want to have sex very often. Maybe it's related to emotional trauma, maybe she's mostly into women, maybe she just naturally has a lower libido than me. It doesn't matter because none of it is about me. Maybe things will change, maybe they won't. I still don't know what to expect from her, so I try not to expect anything and just make the best of where we're at.

    Over the last couple years, my motivation for self-improvement has shifted from a need to make myself "good enough" for her, to a desire to be my best self for me. I've worked on my health and fitness, improved my self-control and eliminated some bad habits, etc. I have goals, a direction in life, and I look forward to most days.

    PE and a general focus on sexual wellness has been a huge benefit to me during this time. I've been able to channel my sexual energy into PE. I'm no longer tortured by unreleased sexual energy because now I know how to channel it into PE, physical exercise, and other pursuits. I'm still new to this but it's hard to overstate the benefits so far. I used to feel like I was going crazy for lack of sex and I hated the lack of control and neediness I felt. My sexual energy felt like a curse. Now I feel like I'm in control of myself and I've got enough energy to accomplish anything.

    My wife knows that I'm doing PE and is fine with it. As I've learned to channel my sexual energy, I've stopped initiating sex as often. I'm not interested in getting rejected, so we're probably averaging once every month or two now. Interestingly, the last couple times were initiated by her but honestly I can't tell if she's really interested or if she's mostly doing it for me. Also, I'm not sure how much size I can gain before it might be a problem for our sex life, as anemic as it is. She's pretty small but for now it's not a problem.

    A little over a year ago, my wife gave me the green light to date and have sex outside of our marriage if I wanted to. I don't know if it's a good idea. Also, I haven't dated in 15 years. I put it all out of my mind for a while because of the pandemic. I suppose I could be living the dream... a loving wife at home and girlfriend on the side, all without the need to hide anything. Or maybe it'd wreck my marriage.

    I love reading PE logs about fantastic gains, great sex and screaming orgasms. Seriously, I'd love to add my own stories to the mix. Maybe I will someday. In the meantime, this is my life and honestly it's pretty good overall, despite the obvious shortcomings.

    PE has kept me sane. It's made my life better, just not in the way you might expect. Sorry if this is all way too much information. I figured I'd just put this all out there this one time and be done with it. I'll provide updates if they're relevant to PE.

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  • NumberSix
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    I've been rounding up on my exercises just a bit. A few extra jelqs, an extra minute of squeeze and clamp. Still, I ended today's morning routine feeling like I could have done an extra set, which is great. I feel better when I end my routine with a hard on ready to go rather than soft and exhausted.

    Conversely, I've been dialing it back on the Bathmate. Yesterday was an "off" day and for the first time in a while, I skipped the Bathmate and gave myself a complete rest day. I think this gave my tunica a chance to contract a bit because I noticed a slightly reduced erect size but increased EQ.

    I know it's just an ego thing but I hate it when my dick gets smaller. That's why I avoid these strict rest days. I know it's just my tunica tightening up, which is easily reversed when I resume my routine, but I still don't enjoy it.

    Anyways, I wore my cock ring to bed as usual and when I woke up, my morning wood was as large (or larger) than my usual size. Both size and EQ were great during my morning routine. I didn't expect this at all, and now I'm thinking I might cut my "on" day Bathmate usage down to 10 minutes and cut it out entirely on my "off" days.

    I just have to reframe what's going on during my rest days. My dick is going to contract a little and look smaller, but it's doing that so that it can recover and grow. If I don't let it do that, it's going to slow my progress. I think I've known this intuitively for a while. Now it's time to set my ego aside and realize that it's all part of the process.

    Not much else going on. Small adjustments. When jelqing, I do the first x50, then helicopter, apply more lotion, and do that second x50. I've gotten more consistent about helicoptering a few dozen times between exercises. I really think it helps get blood flowing again and avoid fatigue. Also, I'm going to try another application of the 2% hydroquinone today. I think I've recovered from the last time and I can see that it really helped with the discoloration. Seriously, most parts of the shaft are a noticeable shade lighter than before. I'm eager to continue with it.

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  • NumberSix
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    Still doing the following routine M, Tu, Th, F:
    • Morning:
      • 5-10 minute warmup with rice sock
      • 5 minutes of stretches (a mix of directional, crank, a-stretch)
      • 3 sets of the following:
        • x100 jelqs
        • squeezes (5 min)
        • clamping with Kegels/RKs (5 min)

      • 5-10 minute warmdown with rice sock

    • Afternoon:
      • 20 minute Bathmate session
      • x100 jelqs


    Helicopters between most exercises. Every night I also wear a cock ring while I sleep. On "off" days, I use the Bathmate for 10 minutes, no other exercises. I drink my version of erection tea daily. I also try to do Kegels/RKs whenever I'm driving or otherwise idle and think of it.

    I got myself a 8"x12" hanging mirror that I can position at seat level when I'm doing my PE routine. Call me weird, but I like seeing my dick while I'm doing exercises, particularly when it's at its max size. I find it motivating to look down and see the extra volume.

    I also found a digital timer that I can use to time my exercises. I find it easier than using my computer or phone.

    My morning routine takes a good 1.5 hours because I take a minute or two between each exercise. It's a lot of time but I enjoy it. If I had even more time each day, I'd do some ballooning and/or edging.

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  • NumberSix
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    Is it the tea? I don't know, but the MW and EQ have remained above average (well, above my average at least). I can tell my erections aren't 100% maxed out, so still room for improvement.

    No big adjustments to the routine. I tried a bit of pelvic floor yoga yesterday. I'm in okay shape but yoga is humbling for me. I'm not the most flexible or coordinated person but it's good to expand my comfort zone and yoga is one of those things I've wanted to do for a while.

    I think the last round of the 2% hydroquinone really did lighten my skin a bit. I'm thinking I'll wait a full week and then try another application of it.

    Happy Memorial Day, folks.

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  • NumberSix
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    Best morning wood in a while. EQ is excellent today. During PE while clamping and kegeling, I was able to get several of those so-hard-it-hurts erections. I'd love to improve my EQ to the point where I can achieve those on my own. I used to get them naturally when my dick was smaller, probably because my tunica was a lot tighter and easier to max out.

    I'm tempted to measure on a day like today but I've decided to set aside the ruler and measuring tape for a bit. When I measure, I tend to feel good or bad based on the measurement. It usually just reminds me that I've got a long way to go, even if it's a good measurement for where I'm at. A quick measure of girth using my thumb and index finger is all I need most days. Between that and my EQ/MW, I can kind of tell how things are going. I'll do a formal measurement again at some point, of course, but probably not for a while.

    The important thing is that my cock feels healthy and my EQ is good enough that I'm pushing up against my limits during the routine. It feels like it's in a state that is conducive to growth.

    When I first started PE years ago, I had a very simplistic concept of how it should work. Basically I figured that I just had to stretch, jelq and pump the hell out of my dick until I was bigger and eventually if I did that hard/long enough, it would stay that size. Pumping in particular is one hellofa drug. It fooled me into thinking I was making real gains but really I was just temporarily stretching things out, swelling with edema, and my EQ was horrible.

    Since then, I've learned (among other things) the value of manual exercises; there are no shortcuts. I've also learned that EQ is great for growth. It's the gift that keeps on giving. A good EQ multiplies the efficacy of my PE routines. A good EQ (especially with a strong libido) gives me more erections, and erections are like passive PE exercises. When I have a good EQ, I often wake up with amazing morning wood, especially when I wear a cock ring. It's a fantastic way to start the day.

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  • NumberSix
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    Better morning wood today, great EQ during my morning routine. As noted earlier, libido/EQ has been on/off. I just keep that in mind and when I've having an off day, I just do my best and know that these better days will come. Pretty much the same as my non-PE workouts. Some days I've got lots of energy, some days I don't.

    The last couple times I've applied the 2% hydroquinone, it's gone from a tingling to burning, so it's time to take a break. I think it's done it's job by removing the darker top layer of skin, at least on some areas. But where it's done that, I now have more sensitive skin exposed which hurts when it's exposed to this stuff. So for now, no more.

    Still drinking the tea. It's got kind of a kick with all that ginger. Kind of hard to tell what impact (if any) it's having but hey, today has been a good day so far.

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  • NumberSix
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    Revised Tea:
    • 2 decaf green tea bags
    • 2 bottles Prince of Peace brand Ginkgo Biloba & Red Panax Ginseng Extract
    • 1/2 tsp fenugreek powder
    • 1 tsp ginger


    It's still grainy as hell but it tastes pretty good.


    My libido has been up and down over the last week or so. Feels like my brain is still rewiring after 2 months without porn. I was on Reddit yesterday and browsed through somebody's collection of computer wallpapers. There was some porn interspersed and seeing those pics, I felt like... meh. Not the dopamine rush I expected. I guess I thought that I'd be more tempted by porn than I am. On the flip side, I can understand why some people get to this point where libido is wavering (or for some, completely dead) and they rush back to porn in a desperate attempt to revive it.

    It used to be that if I wanted a rock hard erection, I could always get it by watching porn. I never reached the point of porn-induced ED; kind of the opposite. Now I don't have that option and it's like learning how to walk again. I have faith that this is a necessary step on my path towards a bigger dick, better EQ, and overcoming Pre-E.


    On a different note, the 2% hydroquinone stuff I've been trying seems fine so far. My dick hasn't melted off.Applying it to the shaft is fine, tingles a little, but if I get any on my balls... oh boy, it burns! I apply some lotion to my balls as a layer of protection first, and if possible, I what I can to keep my shaft away from my balls to avoid spreading the stuff.

    What's promising is that after just a few days, a little bit of darker skin has peeled off kind of like a sunburn after it heals. It's not enough to really tell how much of an effect it's had, but it's a start.

    I've tried to ignore the discoloration issue mostly, but I realize now that it's really been bothering me. I'm excited to see if this pays off.

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  • NumberSix
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    The current routine seems good. When I reach a "rest" day, I usually feel like it's needed. When I return to my core routine, I usually feel rested and ready to go. Lately, I'm making my rest days more... restful. Instead of doing the Bathmate 20 minutes and jelqing x100, I'm just doing the Bathmate 10 minutes, no jelqing. It's always been easy to add to my routine and harder to subtract, but I think this will help with recovery and growth.


    Full Routine:


    Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday:
    • Morning:
      • Warm-up 5-10 minutes with rice sock
      • Directional stretches 5 minutes (1 minute each: up, down, right, left, straight out)
      • 3 sets:
        • x100 jelqs
        • Squeezes 5 minutes
        • Clamping 5 minutes

      • Warm-down 5-10 minutes with rice sock

    • Afternoon:
      • Bathmate 20 minutes
      • x100 jelqs

    • Night:
      • Cock ring (roughly 11pm - 8am)



    Wednesday, Saturday, Sunday:
    • Afternoon:
      • Bathmate 10 minutes

    • Night:
      • Cock ring (roughly 11pm - 8am)



    In addition to the kojic acid lotion, I'm going to try this stuff with 2% hydroquinone to reduce the discoloration. Hopefully it doesn't melt my dick off.


    Tea:

    Lastly, I made some tea yesterday with the following:

    • 2 decaf green tea bags
    • 1 10cc (0.34 fl oz) bottle of Prince of Peace brand Ginkgo Biloba & Red Panax Ginseng Extract
    • 2 pills (600mg) of deodorized garlic extract (I emptied the pills into the tea)
    • 1/2 tsp fenugreek powder
    • 1/2 tsp ginger powder
    • 1/2 tsp turmeric powder
    • Splash of lemon juice
    • Squirt of honey


    Verdict? Weird and grainy. Drinkable, but I'm definitely going to make adjustments. First, I'll just take the garlic pills with my regular vitamins in the morning. Second, no turmeric. I'll try to cook with it but I'm keeping it out of the tea. I'll try again today and see if those changes make it more palatable.

    UPDATE: Made some tea. Much better this time.

    • 2 decaf green tea bags
    • 1 10cc (0.34 fl oz) bottle of Prince of Peace brand Ginkgo Biloba & Red Panax Ginseng Extract
    • 1/2+ tsp fenugreek powder
    • 1/2+ tsp ginger powder


    I was generous with the fenugreek and ginger. I tasted it before adding lemon or honey and decided it didn't need either.
    Last edited by NumberSix; 05-24-2021, 02:59 PM. Reason: tea update

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  • NumberSix
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    Yesterday's PE left me feeling pretty worn out, although I had a bit of morning wood today. Glad I've got a couple weekend days to recover. I may shorten my Bathmate sessions.

    I've finally got the 5 G's (green tea, ginger, ginkgo, ginseng, garlic) and I'm planning to begin experimenting with some erection tea, per Kingpole's thread. My EQ has been okay, but it could be much better. I'm definitely aware that I've probably been going through a bit of stimulation withdrawal after quitting porn a couple months ago. The "reboot" process can last through the better part of a year, I've heard. I'm just glad I didn't experience the "flat line" some people get where their libido drops to zero for a while.

    I had the opportunity to try a little edging last night. I didn't ejaculate, however I frequently neared the PONR and it definitely showed me that I need to make progress in that area.

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  • NumberSix
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    Morning wood and EQ are back! After my last post, I cut my Bathmate session and subsequent jelqs in half (10 min + 50 jelqs). The following day (yesterday) was a light day. I guess that was all the rest I needed.

    Good PE session this morning. I did the routine outlined in my last post and I think it really hit the sweet spot between too little and too much. I feel like I could do more, but that's a good place to leave it for now. After all, I've got a Bathmate session later today.

    Most of the routine is familiar, however I'm using the squeezes to focus on the upper half of my shaft. As noted, my base is wider but the upper half is a good 1/2" narrower. I'm using two hands, one on the lower half, one just below the glans, to concentrate the squeeze on the portion of the shaft that needs it. I kegel some blood up into that area and squeeze. Sometimes I push my hands together a bit to increase the pressure or (carefully) bend the shaft a little in different directions.

    Even on the days that my EQ has bee so-so, my overall energy level is good this week. I work out every weekday and although they're not intense workouts, between those and my PE sessions, I feel like I get a pretty good read on how my body is doing. Right now, it's in a good spot. I'm going to attribute that to 7-8 hours of sleep a night, not skipping meals (which I do when I'm trying to get too much done in a day), and drinking lots of water.

    One final thought... I think I should eventually spend some time solely dedicated to edging so that I can really focus on controlling my state of arousal. Premature ejaculation is a thing for me; not always, but often enough to be a problem. And even when I can last a while, it's usually not as long as I'd like. Ultimately, I'd like to decide if/when to ejaculate. From the very basic work I've done strengthening my Kegels and RKs, I've become aware of how often I involuntarily Kegel (IK) and how much tension my body is holding in general. If I can control my IKs, release my tension, breath properly, and gain better awareness of my arousal overall, I think it'd be a game changer. The benefits would probably extend even beyond sex.

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  • NumberSix
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    Thanks, BiggerDB. Yeah, nothing better than waking up with super wood.

    Alas, just as mysteriously as it appeared, my morning wood vanished today. EQ was also subpar during PE this morning. I happened to look at some older log entries and realized that as I've adjusted my routine, the volume of exercises has crept upward. So it seems like a good time to think about what I've tried over these last several weeks and evaluate what's worked best.

    Stretching: I started with lots of tuck-and-sits, stretches before my core routine and after the Bathmate. Honestly, I think I was stretching too much, too intensely. No noticeable gains or losses from all that, just wasted time. I took a break from all stretching for a few days and now I'm reintroducing some light stretches. I just want to stay loose.

    Jelqs: These were an afterthought in the beginning but now they've taken center stage. I think I get the most out of this exercise.

    Squeezes: I stopped doing these a little while back because I thought I was getting more from clamping and they seemed redundant. However, I tried a few today and I think I might bring them back. Clamping is more intense but squeezes offer more control over the process.

    Clamping: Clamping was and still is a big part of what I do. It's probably the most intense exercise... if my EQ is good.

    Pumping: I remain a big fan of the Bathmate. I tried reintroducing my Leluv air pump recently but I don't feel like it added much. 20 minutes of Bathmate per day is plenty of pumping for me so I'll just stick with that for now.

    Cock Ring: As previously noted, I love wearing it at night. 24/7 is too much for me. I'll probably wear it after the Bathmate once in a while.

    Kegels/RKs: I know my pelvic floor is super important but I still have a lot to learn. I feel like PF stuff is its own category of PE. I do these while I clamp, currently, but I feel like I should be giving more attention to this stuff.

    Other Stuff: Although I don't really focus on them as an exercise, I do like fire goat rolls, helicopters, or to just shake it all out in between other exercises. I'm still consistently doing a warm-up and warm-down.

    Sooo, I'm thinking my update routine will look like this:

    Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday
    • Warm-up 5-10 minutes with rice sock
    • Directional stretches 5 minutes (1 minute each: up, down, right, left, straight out)
    • 3 sets:
      • x100 jelqs
      • Squeezes 5 minutes
      • Clamping 5 minutes

    • Warm-down 5-10 minutes with rice sock


    Daily
    • Bathmate 20 minutes while showering and brushing teeth
    • x100 jelqs
    • Wear cock ring while sleeping


    Still using the Kojic Acid lotion and I think it might actually be reducing the discoloration. Not conclusive yet. I also use the aloe gel after the Bathmate.

    Okay, lengthy post. That's it for now.

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  • BiggerDB
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    Nice work NumberSix. I love the idea of passive PE through wearing the cockring, especially at night. I'm not surprised to hear how much bigger it is in the morning when you do that. Definitely keep us updated on how that goes for you!

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  • NumberSix
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    I've only worn the cock ring while sleeping the last couple days. I apply some aloe gel and slip it on before bed, then take it off in the morning. Consequently, morning wood was back with a vengeance today. My takeaway is that (for me) wearing a cock ring 24/7 is exhausting for my dick. Too much. After a day or two, it just looks and feels exhausted.

    So I'll stick with nighttime use for the cock ring. I think there are potential upsides to using it after pumping, but even then I'd probably take it off after an hour. Pumping is a stressful event for my dick and it needs an unencumbered recovery period afterwards, at some point.

    I'm feeling pretty committed to remaining porn free for the foreseeable future. I think I quit about 7 weeks ago at this point. Yesterday I finally permanently deleted my porn collection and the login info for my go-to tube sites. I wasn't feeling very tempted to watch but I was still holding on to it. Last night I had a pretty enjoyable dream involving several women, sooo... I'll take that as positive feedback from my brain.

    This morning I also decided to set the air pump aside and add an extra set of jelqs instead. So that's x100 jelqs / 10 min clamp / x100 jelqs / 10 min clamp / x100 jelqs / 10 min clamp / x100 jelqs.

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